You knew something was wrong
No matter how hard I tried to hide it,
You never made me tell you why
Or told me not to be so childish.
I know I kept you up at night
And was the reason you fell ill sometimes,
At times I'd pray for me to die
But all I could do was cut and cry.
You cried when you saw what I do-
But we both know I'm not like you.
You should know I struggled to feel
The one thing that should have been so real,
I'm sorry that I could not see
Just how much you loved me.
You told me that you understood
I soon found out you never would,
You didn't mean to lie to me
The weight I hold you cannot see.
You said you wanted me to change-
I had never felt so ashamed.
How can I make you understand
That this is just the way I am,
I wish that I could make you see
It's not your fault, this one's on me.
Now here's the truth I stand to speak
That I have never felt so weak.
So tired, So worn, So drained and done-
Let's go back to before it begun.
