My Badass Best Friends

Chapter Thirteen- Thats the price I'd paid to date Ricky

I woke up about three hours after my operation, I was instantly put into a bad mood when I realised no one was here to see me. Even if he was aloud I'm sure Cam wouldn't come and visit me, that's the price I'd paid to date Ricky. I'd lost my best friend over a guy and honestly I wasn't sure if it was worth it. I mean I love Ricky to pieces and I think he's my first true love, but Cameron will always have my heart. Whether were meant to be together or not, I will always love Cameron in both ways. I'd say he's like my brother but I love him more than that. It breaks my heart that I have to choose from the two boys I love the most, but I can tell it's not going to end very well if I don't pick one. And I have to pick Cameron, I can't throw away all my memories with him. I don't know what it would do to Cameron but to me it would destroy me not having Cam as even a friend.

"Jordanne, he loves you." someone interrupted. I turned my head shyly as a smile erupted on my face. I would recognize that voice anywhere, it was Anne.

"But does he? I, I think I love him." I whispered as my voice became hoarse and a tear rolled down my cheek. As it cascaded further down my cheek, another fell as the countless times Cam's wiped away my tears came back to me.

"Aw babe, he loves you too darling, trust me." she replied as she moved to the left side of my bed. Her blonde locks brushed against the crisp, white sheets of the hospital bed.

"I wish I knew that, I think he..." I let out a long meaningful sigh as I stuttered the words "hate's me."

"Oh babe, don't cry he doesn't hate you. He's been in love with you for years, you've just been oblivious," she whispered as her soft fingertips rubbed against the cascading teardrops.

"He won't talk to me, I-is it because of R-Ricky?" I stuttered as I rested my head on her shoulder. I loved Anne with all my heart, she was like my mother. Never once had she turned me down when I needed her help, she'd let me in and made me feel so much better.

"I'm not sure babe, but if you talk to him he'll probably tell you what's the matter. Cams very stubborn and won't admit when he's been hurt."

"I know, I just don't wanna loose him for anyone!" I wailed as I burst in floods of tears. My cheeks were moist and my nose started running so I guaranteed I looked hideous.

"Remember I'm always here for advice, whenever you need me Jord. But I have to go now, Courtney needs me. Bye." she whispered as she got up and walked towards the door, before she left she waved and then she was gone.

I was left reciting our conversation alone for about five minutes until a nurse came in to check up on me. "Hello Jordanne, how are you feeling?" she asked as she came around to the side of my bed.

"I feel, Urm good?"

"Can I ask you who you were speaking to?"

"Cameron's mum, Anne."

She raised one eyebrow and let out a aggitated sigh. "Jordanne no one has been in the hospital, it's in the middle of nowhere."

"Well Anne was here!" I shouted as I flew from the bed and sat upright.

"No Jordanne, she wasn't!" the nurse replied as her voice started to raise.

"YES SHE WAS!" I screamed.

And that's when it hit the nurse, I had schizophrenia.