i don't feel wanted. i honestly just want him to be real with me instead of having no emotions whatsoever when we are near eachother. sometimes i think i wasn't meant to go this school last year. there is so much pressure being put on me at the moment. i'm having a constant nightmare where everyone i care about ignores me and is rude to me. i all of a sudden get an excruciating pain and then i die. it's been the same nightmare for about a week now. i just need some time.
