Love Like Smoke (HyukBin)

Prolouge

His hair wasn't combed,He looked so dead inside...Skin so pale in comparison to his previous color, baby pink lips now turning into a soft purple, He looked so skinny now....Our beautiful visual was turning into a person I couldn't even recognize anymore. I rarely even see his beautiful genuine smile. Now all I see are lies within his smile.

It was midnight and everyone else was asleep,The only thing I could hear was Ravi's soft snoring since he was sleeping next to me. For the past couple of nights I couldn't sleep,Hongbin had been gone since 6:00 o'clock and he hasn't came back yet. Everyone was noticing how he acted,He didn't act as vibrant as usual, N hyung even stopped calling him dimples, Honestly I couldn't see them anymore.

I texted him earlier and still no reply, I scrolled up and down on my phone, staring intensely into the screen until I heard the creak of the door opening and the not so rhythmic footsteps following. My head shot up and I tiptoed slowly and careful enough not wake Ravi or the others, When I got to the living room, Hongbin was wobbling towards the couch in his drunken state, Of course he went to the bar,I helped him onto the couch and looked at him.

"Hey...hic...Babe~" He kissed my lips softly and I tried not to cringe at the bitter taste of alcohol mixed with smoke. I stared into his eyes and saw nothing,I've been dealing with this for the past 3 months, It just started to slowly happen. Do I love him? Yes. Do I think I can stay doing this forever? No. I can't stay doing this every night, This is the same routine,He comes back drunk, He throws up, I help him into bed, I go to bed and in the morning it's like this night never even happened,And like that The routine was done and I was back in bed. I tiptoed back to to my spot and lied down,staring at wall. I couldn't go on like this...I can't see him disappear slowly like this anymore....I had to put an end to this. I closed my eyes softly.

"This isn't healthy...Hongbin you have to stop. What has gotten into you?!"

"I'm fine. Let me just live life to the fullest."

".....Whatever. Why the hell do I even try anymore?!" I walked out the room and slammed the door shut.

My eyes shot open to feel an arm shaking me awake. It was N trying to shaking my shoulder. I sat up and yawned.

"Come on Hyukkie, Leo has breakfast ready and we're all waiting on you." I got up and walked into the kitchen, everyone stared at me as I took a seat next to Hongbin. I looked down at my plate of food.

"Alright everyone, eat up because we have a long day today!"

Everyone started to eat,Well everyone except for me, I continued to stare at my food until Hongbin spoke.

"Hyuk, Why are you not eating?" He asked. I sighed and the room got silent. Everyone's attention turned to us.

"Hongbin. We need to talk....Something isn't working."

"Huh?"

"Every night you come back drunk, You don't tell anyone where you are and I stay up all night hoping that you come back in one piece. I just can't take this anymore. Hongbin, We need to take a break."

"Hyuk, I can-"

"You say can change but you never keep your promises...Its for the best until I see a change...."

But this was just the beginning of me starting to loose Hongbin....

To be continued...