Finding My Way Home

Never ending path

No end in sight

Just a dark, empty tunnel

Leading to a small, distant light.

Whenever I try to run

I don't move nor advance

I am stomping in repeating steps;

A repeating, running-in-place dance.

I stop trying and sit down

Disturbed with annoyance

That I am not succeeding

In my only chance.

Have I done something wrong?

Is this a sign?

On this never ending path

Was there an end of the line?

I'm not passing the line –

Was I not destined to?

Should I do something with my past?

Like correct and undo?

In the world that is behind me,

I was bad and unkind

I wasn't thinking of others

In my messed up mind.

I didn't treat others nicely

I did bad things everyday

I got in trouble for many things

So that's why I've ran away.

I should fix those moments

And replace the sinful sins with sinless

Change the course of my history

So then I can have another chance.

But should I run, though I tried?

Will I even move?

Should I look upon the things in my old life?

That I needed to improve?

No turning back

I need to try

To put things straight

So then I can run into the light.

I stand up on stone

I'm being consumed in hopeful fire

I need to get out of this darkness

And be who I desire.

I close my eyes

And take a deep breath

I know I can do this

So then I can take a step.

My mind is filled with evil memories