My Lil Highschool Romance

Freshman Year Romance 2

I talked to him and told him that I was going through the same thing. I offered help and he surprisingly took it even though we barely know each other. I was surprised he even responded to a strange girl like me. 

We talk about the break ups for hours on end and we eventually became friends. I talked to him every day now. Every chance I get I would run to my room quickly looking for my tablet on hop on Facebook. I wanted to see his texts and that was what really made me happy. I wanted to see him but sadly he lived Council Bluffs. So we thought ahead of time and eventually made plans to see each other for the fist time. 

The day of the first meet, I was so excited to see him and I was jumping with joy. I was so nervous to because I was still meeting somebody for the first time in real life. I worried about my hair, my looks, and tried to conceal my weirdness. I was shaking uncontrollably it was that same mini earth quake all over again. We arrive at his apartment and we text him saying we're here. My heart is pumping out of my chest. 

We see him for the first time. His name was Alex; he was a sophomore just like me. His super tall stance held the most precious body I've ever seen. His eyes were the first thing I noticed. Green eyes with brown and silver streaks enchanted me into a deep awe. His orange-red hair was down to the tip of his pointed chin. His nose was medium sized placed ever so carefully on his face while his lips were perfect size for any women to fall into. He looked like a twig but his strength showed by nice curves on his arm that were noticeable only up close. He was, by far, the most handsome boy I've ever seen. 

We got into my dads silver Honda and drove to my place. When we got there we played a game called Injustice: The Gods Among Us. I had so much fun with him and we would play non-stop. He would spam the same moves until he killed me. It would make me rage and eventually quit the game. We head upstairs and watch a movie called Annabelle. He isn't really a fan of horror movies so I thought it was a chance to bound, it worked. I would scream to jump scare him and he wouldn't talk to me for a couple of minutes. He then asks if i'm ticklish, and of course I lied saying i'm not because I absolutely despise being tickled. He knew almost immediately that I was lying. He begins to tickle me and I squirm to try and get away but right as I do so my dad tells me that he needs to go home. We both were begging him for us to stay just a couple minutes longer, but a curfew is a curfew. So we drop him of at his place.

Right as we do so, I text him saying that it was so much fun and that we need to do that again. I then tell him that I like him a lot already and surprisingly enough, he did too. And the next date was going to seal the deal. 

Next weekend we pick Alex up again and head for a trampoline park. It was huge! It had separate areas that had separate activities. There was one in particular that I kept my eyes on for the longest time. Dodge ball! I was a master at this game so I immediately go into the dodge ball place and we were assigned teams. Of course I wanted to be on the opposite team of Alex because I wanted to kick his ass.  So once we were all ready to go we both head for the balls and throw them at each other like it was a full on war. He would for me non-stop and I'd dodge like a professional. But sooner or later he would get me and I was out. I had fun even on the side lines; watching him having fun and smiling was like a new little paradise for me. 

Then we start another match and I was fueled up and ready to go. I would hit little kids non-stop and feel so guilt but even then my brain would go back to my first priority. I then throw a ball and it finally hit him! Well in the face and I was out yet again. We do a few more matches and quit. We go out for lunch and go back to drop him off. I was blushing the whole way there because I had so much fun. We arrived at his house and I'm not sure if he could see that I was, but I turn to say goodbye and he kisses me right on the lips. That was the very first kiss I've ever had that I felt a little spark. I quickly turn away so he wouldn't see my red face and say good bye. 

I knew then that I definitely wanted him to be by my side. I tell him that and we both agree. We were a pair at last. 

The dates we had were so fun too. We went to the activity center and threw balls at each other in the ball pit and would chase each other around the biggest obstacles. Other dates were quite simple. We would have Taco Bell and play video games at his house until 7:00 p.m. I was having such a blast. Especially when we would cuddle because his heartbeat was like that of a purring cat. Gentle and calming. 

Months go by and I meet his sister Kylee. We automatically become best friends or so I thought. She told me that Alex would harm her, push her into lockers even. She would even have the bruises to show it. I distanced myself slowly from from Alex because I was getting scared of him. Kylee would tell me that their dad was abusive to and would slap her at any time he would get. She would have those bruises again so I believed her. I finally snapped at Alex saying we were done and he was holding on to me like I was his world but yet I went by those bruises as proof and I called it off. I said to never talk to me again and that if he ever laid a finger on Kylee again I would report him. 

I felt no remorse because he was hurting his own sister. So I was talking to Kylee non-stop until we confess the feelings we had towards each other. We were a pair. The dates were simple just us hanging out and going to the arcade at Dave and Busters. But that was all about to change. 

One night I get a text saying she needs help. She said her dad raped her. I quickly tell her mother about what was happening and I tell William, the younger brother, that something was wrong. I'm lying on the couch crying so hard and hoping she is alright. She told me not to do anything but I refused. I now know why she said not to do anything. It was all a lie.

The bruises were makeup that she took possibly hours to effect. Her "flash backs" were nothing more than staring at a blank wall. Her past was all a lie. Alex had never laid a finger on her at school or at home. And her dad was never abusive towards anyone. I sunk down to my knees and cradled up till my legs were at my head. I was sobbing so loud my parents were worried about me. I eventually told them and they comforted me until late at night. 

I was betrayed by my own girlfriend, my best friend. I had lost the one I had truly loved to some rumors that were nothing more than a thought out well performed lie. I had enough heartbreak. Without hesitation , I texted Alex saying everything that Kylee said and I apologized so much. He was astonished that his own sister would rip something away from him just like that. I had full on hatred for Kylee now. And I never hate unless they do something this extensive. 

I talk to Alex again non-stop. But there was a problem my dad didn't like him one bit. He had a fueling passion to keep me away from that family because Kylee had said that her dad had threatened mine. I wasn't allowed over there again even when me and Alex were together once again. It was only for a short while till I broke off again because inside I was dying to see his face and feel his touch. 

Once we ended again, I met a guy named Killian. He had stunning looks with green tinted hair and his bangs would swoop to the left. We planned a movie and went to see The Visit. He was such a scaredy cat, it reminded me of Alex in a way.  He would hold my hand and coddle my to a point where I could only smell his cologne.  I instantly took a liking towards him as did he. We dated for a couple of weeks and all he was trying to do was get inside of me. He even threw a condom at my face saying Happy Valentines Day. I felt so uncomfortable. 

I posted a video of him and me kissing and my mom saw it and grounded me for a month. During that month I realized that I was trying to mold Killian into Alex. I was commanding him to have more humor have longer hugs, and shorter kissing lengths. I realized I was still in love with Alex. Killian texted me almost right after I was was grounded that he was breaking up with me because I had lived to far away. That's all he said and never said any word to me ever since. 

I regret letting go of Alex because he was my everything. I believed lies and I was brainwashed to think his dad was a bad guy when really his dad was protecting him from me. Alex has a girlfriend and yet I feel like I was mugged, that she took him away from me but that's not true. I took myself out of the picture and into a new one. I was feeling every little bit of sadness that I was crying non-stop when I would see his face. I had become depressed. While I was grounded I reflected one everything I have ever done I sent apology after apology to him and I still feel as if it will never be accepted. I've told him countless times that I still loved him and I now realize he was truly the one for me. But I'm not the one for him.

I still get severely depressed when I see posts with him and his girlfriend smiling and having a good time because I only now see I let go of someone truly special. It was my fault for doing so and I could never forgive myself.