I was crazy for you in that dazzling sky.
Thought my heart would burst, and that I could fly
And all I knew was,
I wanted to find a way
For once—I didn't want to drift away
But I guess I was wrong, or somebody lied
Because you were no sun in some dazzling sky
You just turned it off,
Didn't mention an end.
For the first time—I really wanted to cry
When we laugh at you, you're cleared of blame?
Of course you've moved on...in an obsessive way.
I called you pathetic
You called me the same
Pathetically—it set my heart beating again
Whatever I try, I just won't believe
That what happened was more than someone's dream
But the frayed edges take place
Grinding ghosts in my face
Why. Can't. I. Let go?
You've got a friend, and to look at him burns
I want to feel, but I can't find the words
He's so much to want,
An unreachable dream,
And I can't be whole—not with you up my sleeve.
You make me angry, and I want to scream
I put so much hope in my dazzling dream
Pathetic and lost,
Won't accept the cost,
But now—I only want to dream again
So, to break my grip, I have one last hope:
I want to let go and stop trying to cope.
I don't want to want you,
Don't want to feel you,
I'll just be your friend—who's no flirt and no fool.
The lag-behind of your budding dream,
The unaccepted in your remarkable team,
Stranger, who doesn't leave and can't stay.
All I know is—I have to walk away.
