The Poems from me

You

You hurt me, a lot really.
But I tried to hurt you.
But it hurts me and you don't know.
You hurt me by not being here.
Here when I need you.
But I'm here when you need me.
Am I just some fucking toy to you.
You hurt me and don't give a fuck.

But when I hurt you I say sorry.
I mean when I say sorry not you,
I'm just a toy anymore.
But I'm not a fucking whore.
So stop treating me like a toy.
When you told her you loved her.
It hurt me, but I try to get payback.
But you don't know, like I didn't.
It hurts me so much, more then u.

I'm sorry you hurt me, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I stay with you.
I just hate myself, enough I thought
I thought you would help me.
But fuck no, I must be a toy to u.
You "missed" me and I took u back.
But now look who is in tears.
Me again, I'm tried of you not being here for me.
I'm trying to help myself but failing.

You never call, unless you just say.
Say a few words, the watch your tv.
You say "I love you" so many times.
Anymore I feel like it's lies.
It hurts to think, your cheating.
It's sad when you told her "I love you."
I had to see, then I had to hide.
Hide the pain, lie and say "it's okay"
I put on a fake smile, like I always do.

Even when you can see me on skype.
You never see the pain.
You just hurt me everyday.
But I take it, and I remember.
I say I'll forget it, never do.
I'm sorry I'm not enough.
You say you stopped talking to her.
Bullshit lies coming out you mouth.
You never talk to me anymore.
Shows me that your talking to her just like before.