Castiel X Reader Lonely

lonely.

I apologise in advance, I don't think this one was the best I've write but I've tried, I hope you guys like it.

Do you still remember me Cas?
It's been a year since I left the bunker.

A year since I left my only live and family.

I think about you every day and cry all the more.

I still love you.

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It's been a year, (Y/N).
A year since you left me.

You made me realise I could feel after all.

It was love at first, however now you have left and I do not know any more.

I am confused by these new feelings but sometimes I wish to cry.

I still love you, my angel.

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I still go back to the meadow where you told me you "had felt unrecognisable feelings towards me". That was my safe spot.

I cry whenever I see it.

I walked through the other day and thought I was you crying for me. But when I blinked you had gone.

I've cried so much for you, Cas.

Why did I care more about your safety that feelings?

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I remember you explaining what the feelings I had received were. It was a strange bubbly feeling, I liked it nonetheless.

I also remember your special I'll spot in the meadows. You had also told me I was your special spot instead.

I revisited the place not long ago.

I saw you walking through crying.

Oh, I wished to hold you and kiss you again.

I couldn't brace myself to do it.

I believe the word I should use would be coward.

When you looked at me I teleported back to the bunker.

I hope you saw me.

At least you are safe.

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I heard saw out movie on the TV last night.

I cried a whole day.

I miss hugging into your coat when we watched the movie.

Do you still watch it like we did?

Does it remind you of me?

Did you find another movie instead?

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The movie I believe you claimed was "our movie" aired last night.

I watched it all again, and wept when I could not hold you.
Have you said it since you left?

Have you moved on to another movie?

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Today I'm going to move on, Cas.

I'm going to visit our old places and get on with my life. I hope you can move on to.

I shall miss you.

I thank you for being a great adventure in my life.

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(Y/N), are you moving on?

I have decided I should try. dean said it shall be best.

I will do everything we had previously done.

I shall cry a little more however.

I wish for you to move on to.

I shall no longer burden you.

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I cried at every spot I saw, but still out if happiness at the memories.

Our first kiss, first date, admitting our feelings.

But I'm moving on finally.

I got a job at a bar down town.

We went there once.

Do you still go?

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All the places brought equal sadness to my being.

Some memory's where held there too, ones of great joys.

I visited a bar we had gone to before.

I had to teleport you home. I believe you here drunk.

I have begun to move on. A great adventure lays ahead.

I shall visit the bar a last time.

I hope I may see you.

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You looked at yourself in the mirror and smiled. You where finally moving on.

You would never forget Cas.
God you loved the innocent angel.

You had a new job at the local down town bar. You and Cas visited a few times.

No matter what happened Cas would always be in your life at some point.

(time skip)

(your P.O.V)

I sat at the stool behind the bar, cleaning the top of the surface waiting for a customer to order.

Signing, I hang my apron up and sit in a red booth near the back. Finally this damn shift is over.

I really enjoyed sitting at the back, it was quiet and no one bothered me. It was this booth I sat in when Cas brought me.

A loud bang of the door brought you out of the daydream. You smiled contents at the memory's and continued to glance at your hands until someone spoke.

"(Y/N)?" you know that voice. Tears streamed down your face and you jumped to hug the person. Cas.

"I thought I moved on. I haven't, god, I missed you so much."
You cried into Cas' shoulder, wrapping your armes around his shoulders.

He took a moment to respond, be when he did he embraced you in a warm hug, a feeling you didn't know you would again.

"it's you... I missed you to. (Y/N), would you come back home?" you stepped back. After a year you thought he would be angry that you left without a good bye. Who wouldn't be?

You nodded your head, no time for second thoughts.

"I still love you, even after all this time."

"I love you too."

Finally, I can go home."