Another year has passed and my life continued to get better especially with Josh by my side. I have learned that the hardest part in life is letting go. It's not as easy but my experiences and life events has given me the chance to accept the new and let go of the things that are in the past.
The other day, i visited Dean's grave after flying back to my hometown, on his stone carved the shape of necklace I'm wearing now. A moment ago, i thought i could never leave his side even if he is gone. But trying to break the rope that holds me to life, i know he'd disagree with me if i follow him.
"God gives us life to not waste it, but to spend it spreading good things and make changes to people according to our missions."
I then stood up that day knowing he's in the arms of the almighty Lord, cherished as he was when he was still alive. Another symbol is carved on his stone, a cross. The cross reminds us that Our Father had let his beloved son to die on the cross for our sins, and redemption of the lost souls. I never felt so much connected to my spiritual self in building myself again after walking away from the milestones that brought to who i am today.
"I just need you to accept what is, what was, was was, what ifs are only ifs. Once you've accept this, you'll learn to let go, you'll learn to see the light again. - In the loving memory of Dean Deutzer."
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Leaving Stones Part 1
FanfictionLife of Beverly DeGrandis, dealing with the harsh truths of life. Full read for the understanding of the meaning of the title. xx
