I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

4 - You Say You Wanna, But Do You Wanna Run Away? Your Great Escape

4 - You Say You Wanna, But Do You Wanna Run Away? Your Great Escape
5 Seconds Of Summer - The Girl Who Cried Wolf

Pulling away from the hug, Vic still has the same look but I try to distract him and start asking questions.
"Hey, so where is your last gig?" I turn to Jaime after he put me down on the sofa and sat next to me. "Costa Mesa, California!" He exclaims and I laugh a little at his excitement whilst everyone else shakes their heads or rolls their eyes. "Hey, I forgot to ask, where are you from? You don't sound like you're from Cali." Tony asks. I smile a little at the thought of my not so pretty hometown. I still love it but it isn't pretty in some parts. "I'm originally from Sheffield in England but I moved to California two years ago." I reply and then sit down.

I wonder what Luke and Violet are up to right now. SHIT. I totally forgot about them! "Uhh, guys?" I say to no one in particular. "What am I going to tell Luke and Violet? Mainly Luke." We all share a look and then Tony pipes up. "Tell him you're living with a relative for a while to get away from your town for a bit." I nod and go to the bunks to get my phone.

To: Violet, Luke

Me: Hey, I thought you guys should know that I've gone to live with a relative in San Diego for a while to get away with everything... I won't be able to see you that soon, but if you can please some to Warped! Meet me at the side of the Unicorn Stage when PTV play. Xxx

I got a reply almost instantly.

Luke: I hope you're okay!! And of course I will, also don't go finding any new best friends whilst your away or I will have to hunt them down and deal with them myself! Aha xxx

Violet: I'll try my best! You know what my parents are like... I'll convince them to let me go somehow... I hope your having fun xxx

Me: I am having plenty of fun and I'm okay, I hope to see you two at warped then! I've got to go now but I'll talk when I can, see ya! Xxx

With that I closed my messaging app and rested my head against the wall next to the bunks with my eyes closed. I think Luke thinks somethings up... He knows I don't have any relatives in San Diego, Violet on the other hand took the bait. I hope Luke doesn't tell her anything.
I decided to climb into a random bunk and plug my phone in and listen to some music. I out my earbuds in on full blast and listened to some Miss May I. Hey Mister was blasting through my earbuds but I wasn't feeling that song so I put on Open Wounds (no pun intended) and laid down. After a while I changed my playlist to a calmer one which consisted of The Inside Is Live, Paramore, Fall Out Boy, My Chem, Panic!, Halsey, PVRIS, Melanie Martinez and Muse. Putting it on shuffle I closed my eyes and got under the covers and waited for sleep to come.

***

I was awoken from my dreamless sleep by someone shaking me. "Whaaat?" I groaned. I heard a low chuckle. "Come here, I'll show you your bunk... You're in mine right now." Kellin was smiling at me when I turned around. "Fine." I breath out, smiling a small smile back at him. Taking my phone, earbuds and charger I hop out of Kellin's bed and follow him to where he pointed out my bunk, underneath Mike's. "Thanks, Pete." I say and climb in to my bed. "Don't worry about it." Kellin smiles again and lifts himself up into his bed. I tried to get back to sleep but I couldn't due to my own thoughts, so I picked up my phone, put some Alt-J on and scrolled through my phone.
I had a lot of messages from my 'parents' and some from Luke checking up on me. I didn't answer to any of them, I was too tired. Putting my phone back down, I laid in my bed staring at the ceiling with my mind going crazy and my music on full blast. As you can probably tell, music is a drug to me; I wouldn't last a day without it. Quickly rummaging through my bag I pulled out my blade and sat spinning it between my forefingers and thumbs, careful not to cut my hands. Do I really want to do this? No. But do I deserve it? Yes. Looking around to see if everyone was asleep - which they were, I got up and walked to the bathroom, blade in hand.