Big idiot [NaLu]

6: Nothing really happened

Chapter 6 done. And WOW! Look at how many people that have read this!!!! And all the votes!!! I'm just amazed, it's just crazy. Thank all of you, it really means a lot! And I'm speaking truthfully!!!! My body hurts a lot from exercising but if it didn't I would run around my room or something. Or just sit in my computer chair. I really don't know how to write a meaningful "speech" but I really want you to know, that every one. Just reading my fanfiction, vote for it or leaves a comment. Whoever you are you just made me really happy. You made a girl, sitting in her room writing this in her computer chair, you made her really happy. So thank you all again and hope you like the new update.

I can feel his glare burning on my back, studying all of it as if he expected to find something he was searching for. Me on the other hand was feeling rather cold. More specific I was cold sweating. I was nervous and for some unknown  reason I felt as like a sheep sitting in a classroom, full with wolfs taking notes for an important test coming up. And as an official fact sheep doesn't have any thumbs, or hands either for that matter. So I, Lucy Heartfelia the sheep was constantly rolling my yellow pen up and down on my wooden desk. My fingers pushing it up by the slightly leaning desk and by lifting my hand up in the air just one centimetre in the air -
(A/N: As you maybe already know I live in Sweden and there, we use the meter system. Like centimetre... I have no idea if I'm just making a fool out of my self writing this note or if it actually help at all （ーー；）. Back to the story...)

Letting the pen roll back to my other hand, stopping the yellow wood to fall off the bench. I grabbed into my pen leaving marks formed as fingernails hardly forced to dig into the easy destroyed tool. With courage I had saved up for the last 30 minutes I slowly turned back my head looking right into a par of glowing eyes. My head snapped back to it's regular place facing forward. My whole body, every mussel was tense in the remaining 30 minutes. I felt like a stick. Am I'm going crazy over this, over Natsu staring at me? My body tensed again when the bell rang through the halls. The students stood up and started to clean there desks off from schoolwork. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked back at the person standing behind me. Natsu.

"Hey Luce..." He trailed off scratching the back of his head. He searched for the right words, not really knowing what to say. All this, I can read all of that just in one look. Wow, we really have been friends for a long time. In this situation, I would probably go all crazy, be nervous like before but a thousands time worse, maybe i would have fainted even. But som how, in all this stress not knowing if some one knew my secret. Every time someone wanted to talk to me, I could only think of 'they figured it out!' But right now I staid calm. Not moving an inch. It's like I don't care anymore. Go ahead! Tell the world! Scream out loud that I slept with my best friend! That I'm a slut or what ever you like to call me I don't care! I won't care even if he gets angry!!! It wasn't just my fault! I could feel the blood flew up my face in anger. My bangs covered my face as I looked down, my hands clenched into tight fists along my sides.

"What." I say straight, not letting any emotion threw my lips. Either Natsu didn't noticed it or he just shrugged it of not really knowing how to react.

"I.... I just wanted to tell you I'm, I'm sorry Luce." He bend his head to the side with a slight blush appearing on his cheeks.

"At the party you know, I shouldn't.... I mean..."  He trailed of once again. I, still looking in my own choose had eyes wide as teacups. Sorry? Is he sorry? Does he really remember. He really remembered! What am I supposed to do? Just stand here like a freak? No thank you! But he really remembers and he's blaming him self? Not even a little anger? But it wasn't just his fault! It was mine to!

"N-no it was m-my f.... Fault as well." I said in quite low and fast, shuddering out the sentence.

"Don't take all the blame!" I continued rising my voice a bit by the word. He looked at me, a little sad smile formed on his lips.

"But it was me who dragged you to the party." He paused. Looking down at me he tilted his head a little before continuing.

"You didn't want to go in the first place" he felt bad, anyone could tell that. But it was just like he had stolen candy. Not like he just had slept with his best friend. But it made me kind of happy. He didn't make such a big deal of it, just as I wanted.

"I don't actually, remember anything... I just heard people that seen os at the party. All this really got weird fast, hu..." He continued a little awkwardly.  Suddenly, I didn't really know what to do in this situation. He knew, but didn't remember. Yea, from not making it a big deal this just got akward. In this situations a normal person would try to lighten the mood. I am quite normal but I'm not making anything lighten up by my pep talks.

"You.. Y-you, you was my.... My first..." I shutter awkwardly, more likely whisper while holding my fist in front of my mouth. Did I really just say that? I really just said that. I can't believe myself -_-' .

"I were your first kiss???" He sad surprised. Just so quiet the other in the class that were left wouldn't hear. 'Your first kiss', well he was more than my first kiss.

"Hey Luce, you should have boys drop by your feet with that body and you still haven't had you're first kiss before the party? You sure are stubborn." He exclaimed. My face lit up in both anger and embarrassment as he just continued to look at me in a wondering expression.  Blood rushed to my face colouring it bright red.

"Natsu...." I whisper with a scary aura starting to surround me. I se  how his expression changed as he immediately regret his chose of words.

"That's not what I meant! I promise!!" He shriek as his hands flew up to the level of his face shaking hastily, making up his point. I bring down my hand I unknowingly had raised. The awkward silence is immediately back.

"So what have you heard?" I sight in a gesture of defeat. He raised his eyebrow before understanding what I meant.

"Nobody really saw much and not so many remembered anything. It was a lot of people there. The only thing I heard was from a small rumour of os kissing. Well sorry, again."

...

He didn't know.

Anything.

I felt how my whole body relaxed. At the same time my heart started to raise fast, it felt like it was going to break my ribs. Like a little bird in a cage trying to break it ways out to freedom. Sadly for the little bird it had to stay inside my rib cage to keep me alive.

I happily smile at him. I felt really light in my whole body. I giggle a bit, than look at his confused face. Swing his expression only made a me laugh, it bubbled up my throat until I was laughing so hard I couldn't breathe.

"What's up with you all of a sudden? You're acting weird Luce." He pouted as I started to make my way out of the classroom still I big smile plastered on my face.

"Hey! Where you going! Don't leave me behind!" Natsu shouts as he runs up the short distance to me. The sun was brightly shining threw the windows of the corridor making it shine beautifully threw his pink hair. This is how it's supposed to be. Just best friends with a crush. That's all I desire. I don't need anything more than just him staying by my side. I felt the warm sun on my skin making me sight comfortable.

I don't need any more then this, because this is perfect.

It's like nothing happened.

So Lucy finally accepted that "nothing" happened. But we all know that's not true ;).  It's short but it's something. See you all in the next chapter!