1:35 am ✧ Lashton

Cinder-fella

Song:
Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

Thursday June 16, 2016

Ashton's pov  (surprise surprise)

I could feel it. It was so peaceful. Everyone had excepted it. My time was almost up.

"Ashton. Come to my room." Luke requested, helping me out of my window and into his. "I'm tired, nap with me" He pouted. I was tired myself and could use a good cuddle from my boyfriend.

"Goodnight, Lukey" I kissed his forehead and drifted into my sleep.

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I was awakened at 1:30 by a tapping on my nose and the emptiness I had felt beside me from earlier in my sleep but decided to ignore my lonesomeness. Luke was straddling my waist "Ash, babe. Come on." He hopped off of me and pulled me over the bed, allowing me to stand up and stretch.

Luke led me to his window, onto our overhangs, and into my room. I was astonished but what I saw.

Tea lights were scattered around my shelves and tables. An iPhone dock being plugged into my wall and Luke set his phone down onto it.

"Do you like it?" Luke asked me. "I woke up at like 12 am and set everything up. I even almost caught your Paramore poster on fire but it's ok now." He scratched the back of his neck.

I hadn't spoken yet and I stared around the room with a stoic expression. I was soaking it all in.

He let his shoulders fall and sighed. "I'm sorry it sucks. I just wanted to do something a little special and I know you liked dancing because that one time on the roofs when you said that you won one of those dance competition things and I'm sorry-" he was rambling.

I cut Luke off with my hand on the back of his neck, pulling him into a kiss. We were a smiling mess and could barely keep our mouths together without knocking teeth.

"You talk too much." I grinned.

"Dance with me, Lukey"

I pressed play on the dock and Can't Help Falling in Love by Elvis Presley began playing. On the screen read 1:35 am.

I did a bow and reached my hand out for Luke to rest his small hand in mine. He did a small curtsy and took my hand hand in his.

I pulled Luke close and rested my hand on his lower back. He settled his arms around my neck and stared into my eyes. I was never good at sustaining eye contact but there was something about this boys powder blue eyes that had me staring for hours.

We swayed to the song and just held each other tight. When we weren't staring at each other, we had our foreheads reposed together.

For the time we danced, we didn't kiss, didn't make hasty movements. We simply embraced each other's warmth and didn't ever want to let go. But I had to let go. Of everything.

In a few days, I won't be here anymore. Luke won't have anyone to sing to him or read to him. He won't have anyone to cry with. He won't have anyone to kiss and be intimate with. He could but sometimes I'd like to think that he would only want me, as selfish as it sounds.

I will have to let go of the only thing that has kept me alive. The only thing that has allowed me to sleep. The only thing that has shown me love.

I wasn't going to be sad tonight. This was a special night. It's one of our last ones together and I'm going to make it worth it. I'm going to make every last second I have with my boyfriend count.

"I can't help falling in love with you" Luke sang along softly into my cold ear.
We smiled and tried our best not to trip over each other's feet.

As the song faded and our swaying stopped, I kissed Luke. Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers began playing (Seriously please exit right now and play this song while you read the last few sentences I swear to God) and I kissed the boy with everything I had left. We were on the verge of tears. Happiness, sadness, fear. Every emotion was running ramped as our clothes hit the floor.

The music kept playing and we made love surrounded by candles, not worrying if we would burn down the whole building. Sweat and frustration consumed us as we couldn't seem to get any closer than we were right now. This love was the only love I would ever need. Even if it will end in a matter of days, this boy was the love of my life.

This is the love I will tell future generations about. I won't even care if there are future generations. I was only 18 and my whole life has been condensed into 4 short months. I fell in love, experienced pain, lost sleep, practically quit school, made love to the boy I met only months ago.

We used every last drop of love we had that night. Luke never stopped smiling and the only words I ever uttered from my mouth were "beautiful" and "I love you". No profanities. No rush. Only love.

"I can't unlove you, Ashton Irwin. And I don't want to."

There are so many TFIOS references.
Almost over, dudes.
:-(