Chapter One
Whats wrong with me
I dont understand. Why is it everything i say or do might just end up hurting someone important to me? My ex girlfriends both said i made them really sad and made them want to hurt themselves. So whats my problem?
Elise was a bad breakup for me. She was always out of the ordinary and not afraid to speak up and that was something that i greatly admired about her. I loved Elise so much but i said the wrong thing and Bam! She was gone. What i said was "Elise, i hope you won't be mad at me but i honestly do not feel like we are dating anymore.". I know what you are thinking, i probably just made the biggest mistake in the world. But i have no regrets because she ended up treating me like trash for a while. We eventually went back to being friends but it wasn't the same after that because we could both tell.
The other breakup wasn't that bad. This girl, Tonya, felt pity for me and went out with me. I was really glad she was caring and stuff but i immediately stop loving someone when i find out they pity me. I am rather independent and don't like people worrying and crap about me. Although she had beautiful green eyes and dark brown hair that she always tried to hide i was just glad that she is free and happy with a guy she loves.
It makes me realizing that im really not good at relationships or particullary anything. Maybe i should just give up but i guess i just have to understand myself better. Yes, it sounds weird that i do not know myself well enough but maybe i should just think things through for a while chillin and listening to music.
Coming soon:Chapter 2. Let me introduce myself
