Her Story

Chapter One

My Addiction

Everyone has there addictions. Some smoke, some drink. Some do drugs and some have crazy addictions. My addiction is...

Self harm.

I can remember the first time I self harmed. I thought I could control it. I thought it was maybe just, a one time thing. But god, was I wrong. People say it's wrong I self harm. That it's maybe childish, disgusting, or just "distasteful". But I don't listen it's my addiction. And I'm not stopping anytime soon. It's not like anyone cares. Well besides my best friend Kyle. But I can't even stop for him.

Let me introduce my self, I am Sara Carly Smith. I am 15, I have long black hair, and bright blue eyes. People say I'm skinny but I hate the way I look, I'm fat and hideous so that's why I starve my self. I want to be pretty.

I got of my closet floor. Yet another night of crying, blades and blood. It's the usual. It's been this way for 3 full years. But it's not a big deal. I'm not a big deal. I heard my phone so off I figured it would be Kyle, and I was right.

K- Come over I haven't seen you in so long!

S- I've been busy, but ill be over in ten, and Kyle, it's been like a week since I've seen you.

K- whatever, I still miss you, see ya soon babe ;*

S- k see you loser ;*

I don't like Kyle, he's just my friend and that's all he will ever be. He's like my brother and I love him just like my bother.

After I got finished I walked over to Kyle's house. I knocked on the door and was greeted by his mother "Oh, hello darling! How have you been?" She said, she was like another mother who I loved dearly. "Great Mrs. Donaldson thanks for asking." I grinned. "Kyle! Sara is here!" She called to Kyle. Kyle walked down the stairs. His dark brown eyes glistened along with is dirty blonde hair. I must admit he was attractive but I wasn't attracted to him. It's hard to explain. "Hey babe" he winked. He called me babe because idk it's just the normal thing he does. He has since we were kids so it's just the usual thing he says now. "Hey loser, how ya been?" I winked back. Me calling him loser was the usual too. He chuckled. "I've been fine, so you want to watch a movie, or something?" He asked "Sure I want to watch a horror movie" I replied. He nodded and took out his large collection of horror films. We've always been addicted to horror films and that's all we really ever watch. "Dark skies?" He looked at the movie in his hand then at me. I nodded in agreement. Kyle sat down in the couch while I put the movie into the player. Once it started I sat next to him for when I got scared. He grabbed my wrist and looked at the fresh new cuts. I couldn't react fast for he had startled me. A tear rolled down his tan cheek but he let go of my wrist and looked away for me not to see him cry. Even though I have plenty of times. "You promised you wouldn't this week." His voice was shaky. "I.. I'm... I'm sorry." I stuttered. I knew it hurt Kyle. And it hurt me knowing Kyle is in pain, especially because of me.

He looked at me in the eyes. "Please. Sara. Please, stop. Stop for me! Stop for your mom! Stop for your little brother!" He yelled. "It's not that easy Kyle! I can't just stop, at the word! You know it's so hard for me." I yelled right back. He went silent. "Don't start. Not with this again." I pleaded. "SARA YOU DONT UNDERSTAND! IT'S HARD TO SEE YOUR BEST FRIEND SINCE CHILD BIRTH HURT THEM SELF! I know it's not f*cking easy, but it's not SOOOOOO hard either. Don't you want to stop? Don't you want to get better!?" Hey screamed. I nodded. I did want to stop. I mostly wanted to stop for Kyle. I ran into the bathroom. I sat on the floor and cried. I just sat there and cried. I didn't know what else to do, but cry. I heard a knock on the door and in came Kyle. "Babe, just try and stop. Try your hardest you possibly can. For me. You have to promise promise me this time." I nodded. "I will. For you." He smiled and kissed my cheek. "Want me to walk you home?" He asked "Sure". I said my goodbyes to Kyle's mom, and headed out the door.

On our way to my house I saw a very attractive guy going on a run. Our eyes met. His bright greenish blue eyes locked with my eyes. He stopped running then I stopped walking. He walked up to me. "Hi, I'm Ryan" he took my arm and kissed my hand. I giggled "Hi, I'm Sara, did you just move in?" I blushed "Yes actually I live just over there" he pointed to the house two doors from mine. I totally forgot Kyle was there until he introduced himself. "Ugh hum, I'm Kyle." He shook hands with Ryan. "I live in the red house. Two houses from yours." I smiled "Might I ask for your number?" Ryan gestured to me. Once I have him my number we said our good byes and I kept walking with Kyle. "You like him don't you?" He chuckled "Pshh... No" I laughed.

Once we got to the door of my house Kyle kissed my cheek and gave me a hug. "Call ya later babe" he waved goodbye "Bye" I waved back.

Once I got inside I got a text.

Unknown- Hey, it's Ryan, is this Sara?

S- Hey! Yea it's Sara

R- Was that guy you were with your boyfriend?

S- No way!! Kyle is my best friend. More like my bother.

R- Okay good, so Sara I was wondering do you maybe want to grab something to eat once?

S- Yea sure sounds cool.

R- Saturday good?

S- Yea. Sounds great pick me up at 6:00.

R- Can't wait ;*

I did my little happy dance and smiled so much my cheek hurt. I couldn't wait until Saturday----------

Hey guys! It's Madison hope you like the first chapter!