My Best Friend's Best Friend.

Confessions

"Fine! Ok!" I shouted to my best friend "I'll tell you!"

"Finally!"

"It's you" he looked at me like I was about to shatter into a million pieces. "I like you."

"That's sweet" He told me "But I'm sorry. I don't feel the same way"

"I know" I tried to act disappointed. 

"But this doesn't change anything. You're still my best friend, ok?" I nodded and he hugged me tightly.  

We walked back around the building towards the rest of our friends. They were all talking about what to do that day.

"We should go to the mall. Like a big group date." Bailey suggested, followed by a chorus of "ok's" and "i'm down's"

"I wish I could," Ashton said from next to me "But my parents will kill me if I'm not home soon"

"But who will I hang out with?" Ashton and I always go to these things together even though we are not and never will be dating. 

"Go with Adam" He suggested. Adam was the entire reason I had to lie to Ashton in the first place. I looked towards the edge of the group where Adam was looking at me and smiling. 

"Fine" I said "If that's ok with him?"

"Yeah it'll be fun" He responded. We got into three separate cars and drove off. I was in the car with  Adam and his brother, along with Bailey. 

When we got there, everyone was acting like they were on dates- except Adam and I. I made an excuse to leave and he followed. 

"Hey are you ok?" he asked me.

"Yeah." I looked down and then ran my hand through my hair like I do when I'm upset or awkward. "No. I don't know. I just have a lot on my mind"

"Want to talk about it? I know a place" He suggested. I nodded and he led me to a small corridor where there were almost no people. We sat on a bench by the wall and I tried to figure out where to start. 

"Is this about Ashton?" He asked. 

"Kind of" I told him "How did you know?"

"You seemed kind of off after you went to talk to him. What did you guys talk about?"

"I told him about my feelings and I hope I didn't make things awkward but I kind of feel bad about it at the same time" he raised his eyebrow "I feel like I made his position awkward by telling him. I don't think I should have told him. "

"What exactly did you tell him?" Adam asked. 

"I told him I had feelings for him." I confessed. I looked at him and I couldn't read his expression.

"Well at least you were honest with him." He told me, as if he couldn't come up with a better response. 

"Not entirely."

"What does that mean?"

"I do have feelings for him. I absolutely adore him." I said confidently. "It's just not the way he thinks. I mean he's an amazing friend. I'd die without him. But when he kept asking me who I was into, it freaked me out and I figured he wouldn't do anything if I told him it was him and I don't know why I did that cause I could've just ruined everything with him" 

I didn't realize I was crying until Adam reached forward and wiped the tears from under my eyes. He pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around me as I cried silently for a few moments. 

"I think you need to tell him the truth, but not until you're ready." He told me gently "But if I may ask, who do you like?"

I looked down and let silence fill the air. 

"It's ok. You don't have to tell me. I get it" we sat in silence for a few moments before I looked up at him. 

"Who do you like?"

He smiled and started twiddling his thumbs. 

"Uh, no one" He tried to lie. In that moment I was hoping he'd say my name. I knew it was very unlikely, but the small part of me that still believed in fairy tales and happy endings had hope. 

"Oh come on. No one gets that look and doesn't like anyone" He started blushing even more.

"I'm serious!" he laughed. I raised an eyebrow at him "Fine. There is a girl. She's pretty amazing. But I don't think she feels the same way."

"Adam she'd be crazy not to." He smiled 

"Thanks" His smile changed my whole mood. 

We sat there for hours, or at least what felt like hours. We had no interest in finding the rest of the group. We were just lost in our own pointless conversations. I heard his stomach growl and laughed. 

"Want to go get some food?" I laughed.

"Sure" He casually grabbed my hand and held it until we walked out of the hall. We had just gotten our food when Adam's brother showed up.

"Dude I've been looking for you everywhere! We've been trying to leave for like half an hour!" 

"Sorry dude. We couldn't find you either." Jason got annoyed and we followed him toward the rest of the group. It was a great end to a great day.