The Sticky Note Girl (2019)

CHAPTER 6

"Okay." Agnes replied coldly, looking away from me then doing her stuff again.

I asked her to see me after lunch so we can start doing the project. Seriously. It took me about an hour to find her and she just gave me a cold shoulder?

"Thanks."

Ugh. I told him. Agnes will be a pain. She's the type of girl who doesn't care about the things around her. She's always blocking the world with her headphones maxing out the volume that people near her could actually hear the song she's listening to. She's looks like a rock star with her fashion sense, wearing all black and topping it off with boots. She has piercings, thick eyeliner and basically looking like black itself.

I feel like I understand everything he said. That I need to open up to others and let them see the other side of me. That if ever they reject me, it's fine, at least I've done my part. I really can't sleep last night, thinking about those things he said, the things I've done before for me to deserve this treatment, Brit black mailing me... Everything. I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember.

And as if the world was mocking me, I had a nightmare on the same night.

I was in Brit's house with some other girls. We were having a huge birthday bash for her. Everyone was present and having fun. Boys started to gather around, and in a blink of an eye, the club is going wild. We danced all night, bottles of alcohols scattered everywhere. In that moment, I thought everything was perfect. I have friends and a boyfriend. I felt free.

I was drunk. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, sitting here, I can see some of my friends doing PDA and I yelled at them.

''Get a room, you two!" Pointing at them.

"Will do!" They ran upstairs, and I heard them slam a door.

I don't know how many bottles I already took, but everything is blurry. The stench of liquor is all I'm breathing in. I feel like sleeping right here but before I could, I felt someone touch my thigh.

"Hey, babe." I kissed him seductively, ruffling his hair, and I can feel him moving his hands gently.

"How're you? Drunk much?" Kissing my neck and I moaned. Damn, my barriers, he's getting rid of them. I tilted my head and he kissed my lips, hard. We exchanged rough kisses and I feel his hands moving up, caressing my back.

"Babe. Wanna go upstairs?"

And cut! Mom woke me up. Shit. I shook my head and for a second. I wanna smash my head with a brick. That dream... That... It.. Happened... Almost three years ago. A five minute nightmare to remind me of everything that happened.

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Lucas asked me to have some lunch with him and Shawn, but I refused. Shawn, he's like Lucas. Stupid but he makes sense whenever he talks. He told me that he didn't talk to me because I look like a monster, that I didn't smile, and that he thought I was fine being alone and doing favors. Ugh. Come to think of it, he never asked me to do his project or whatever. Really, I closed my door the entire time.

I didn't eat my lunch. I was brutally occupied by my nightmare. It's killing me.

Class is done and I didn't even notice. Someone poked my cheeks.

"Hey. Don't be creepy. I thought we'll be going to Shawn's ?" Agnes arched an eyebrow. I totally forgot. We're going to watch the film at Shawn's house.

Before I was able to answer, Lucas and Shawn rushed towards us so fast that for a second I thought they're gonna hit us.

"Bunch of kids." Agnes looked at them.

Shawn smirked at her. "Wanna see if I'm really a kid?" Uh-oh.

"Okay, stop!" Lucas interrupted them, placing his self between the two. "Guys, I'm in a rush. Right, Shawn?"

Shawn stepped aside, far from Agnes. "Right."

"Wait, rush? What rush?" I thought we'll be doing the project?

"Uhm, yes. I'm sorry, but something came up. Ugh. I totally forgot about that. I thought I'm free for today, but, I gotta go." I looked at him quite confused. "Agnes, Sab, sorry. Let's just... Can we just reschedule it some other time?" I can see his serious. I can see panic in his eyes.  

"I... I can't be late." Looking at his watch.

Agnes sighed. "Okay. Some other time."

This time, I asked him. "Personal matters?"

He half smiled. "Family matters."

I really don't know anything about him yet. Whenever we talk, he always asked about me, and I never even asked things about him. I think it's a bit unfair.

Agnes packed her things. "Gotta go."

But Lucas stopped her, "Wait. You can go together." Looking at me and giving me that kind smile.

"Uh... Yes, we can leave together. I don't have anything else to do here. But... If.... You don't want...." I'm afraid she might refuse me this early.

"No prob. Come on." She started walking out of the room. I looked at Lucas, feeling nervous and he just smiled at me like actually saying that I can do this.

We started walking down the streets. I don't know what to say, nor a topic to start. We just keep on walking until we reached the bus stop.

"You're not gonna ride the bus?" I asked her, she waved at the bus saying that she's not gonna ride so that it can move on.

"No, I prefer walking today." She told me, plainly but she's smiling. "So, you're always walking on your way home?" Unplugging her headphones.

"Uhmn, yes. To save penny. And my house is just blocks away."

"That's cool." She smiled again.

Somehow, I felt relieved. I thought she's gonna judge me but I'm wrong. She actually smiles, and she does care what's around her. From here, I can see her roaming eyes everywhere, looking at everything as she feels the air.

"I always have a private car to fetch me from school so walking here is a rare chance for me."

I just looked at her. Well, she's rich. What would you expect. She can even go to school with her private jet if she wants.

"I'll take this way here." Tilting her head to the left.

We walked for about twenty minutes. Twenty minutes of awkwardness. Well, I'm sorry. I don't know how to make friends. I only got a little tutorial from Lu! Life seems to hate me.

"Uh, sure. I'll go straight here."

"Okay. So see you tomorrow." She smiled, that sweet smile, and then left.

My first impressions were wrong. Totally wrong. Agnes, I will know her more. I will try to open more topics the next time we talk. Maybe I'll even research.

And yes, Lucas was right. She's good. Ugh. Why is he always right?!

Everyone's staring at me. Does it bug them that I have this huge grin on my face while walking alone?

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