Heaven

Heaven in her opinion is considered a taboo topic. This reason being that nobody knows the truth. Some people can live with this. The idea that you don't know what comes after you end doesn't seem to scare some people. It doesn't seem to affect them in the way it affects her. She doesn't know what to expect. Adding this to the fact that religion is a touchy subject to her doesn't help either. You see, she doesn't fit. In every religion there is something that makes it a "no" for her. In every religion there is something that makes it a "yes" to her. Nothing seems to make sense so she doesn't know what to believe.

Coming from a family that had different opinions on things like death, religion, and heaven makes it hard.

Her Aunts and Uncles on her Mother's side say that after death you completely forget your family and you roam around upstairs until you see someone from your past and remember them. Well that sucks because why would the big man give you all this amazing life just to have you forget it when you meet your demise.

Her Grandparents on her Father's side say that they don't know. That the only thing you can do is have faith. Well where are you supposed to get faith from if you have no ground, no structure you build your faith from.

She's confused.

She's stuck and she doesn't know how to fix it.

How is she supposed to live her life if she doesn't have a basis, or anchor.

Maybe she's a little weird. Maybe shes onto discovering the secrets of the unknown or maybe she just wants to know what her life will be like when she takes her last breath.