A Big Mistake...

The break up

Shane's POV

I need to tell Lisa... But... No... She will hate me, she will tell me I'm a gay faggot.... Just like jerid.... I tried to tell Jerid that I like guys as well as girls, and he said that he disowned me as his brother and my gay faggot ass needed to get out of his house... He is my brother... We was...but I have to tell her... What am I gonna do?!? I have to tell her... But...UGH...

*2 Hours of thinking later

Well after hours if thinking I cane to a conclusion... I'm gonna tell her,

No ones Pov

Lisa was laying in the bed editing one of her videos, it was a tipical night... But something had been bugging her... She had not gotten her period yet... It was 2 weeks late.. She let it pass but it wouldn't stop bugging her....... She needed to tell Shane, why not now? She got up and just then she heard Shane yell her name from the living room

"LISA" Shane yelled loud enough so lisa could here

"COMING" Lisa yelled in response she needed to talk to him anyway

Shane's POV

My fingers were trembling I was sweating more than usual... I was as nervous as I've ever been... She came in and sat down next to me...

" We need to uh talk" the words barely came out of mouth.... She looked up at me with fear in her eyes.... She could tell something wasn't right, tears began to form in my eyes.... She grabbed my arm so that I turned her direction looked at me for a second and hugged me, she released and looked directly in my hurt eyes... And spoke...

"Shane, I love you more than you will ever know, so when I ask this I want a truthful answer....(begins to tear up) what's wrong?"

I no longer had a choice I had to tell I couldn't lie any longer... I looked directly back in her eyes.... I pulled her in my arms... And crude on her shoulder.... How could I do this to her? She is so perfect, people say no one is perfect but when I look at her I see pure perfection.... But it can't be, I can't have this I don't deserve it I like guys... In the middle of my thoughts she pulled away and now as she was crying her makeup was all over her face, still. Perfect. Now I had to tell her I didn't have a choice...

S: I want you to know no matter what happens in the-the next 5 minutes I love you, I always will, your perfect and I'm madly in love....

I stopped there I couldn't go on... I couldn't tell her...

L: y-you know that not why your crying, Shane p-please tell me...

Tears begin to stream down my face at a mulillion miles an hour I finally found love and I ruined, she didn't do a thing wrong I RUINED it...

S: i-i... I uh, I ( pauses for a moment) ive been looking at other people...

Lisa's POV
A giant sigh of relief just cane over me, I thought he was gonna break up with me, I hugged him and smiled

L: Hell, Shane I don't care if you look its natural I look sometimes! You had me scared! Don't ever do that to me again!

I playfully punched Hus shoulder and begin to wipe up some more of my tears....

Shane's POV
This was gonna be even harder than anticipated now...

S: no, no Lisa you don't understand...

L: Shane! Its ok, you can look!

S: NO! YOU DONT GET IT, ITS NOT GIRLS..... Its guys.... I...I...I'm bisexual..... And I can't be with you anymore... I'm sorry I need to figure myself out...

I was gonna hate myself forever about this but I couldn't see her reaction when I said I couldn't be with her... I got up and left... I got a glimpse of her face she was in shock... I didn't wanna leave her, but something in the back of my head said, it wasn't meant to be... I couldn't stop crying I couldn't feel anything but I just kept driving... And driving.... I didn't know what to do... It wasn't safe... I stopped at a store and got a bottle of Vodka... The man in there told me I should stop, sit down my hands were shaking I got in my car and drive a little ways away... And drank... And drank... I drank until I couldn't feel anymore I didn't want to... I was hurt and done... I just crushed something I could have had... We could have kids gotten married, got a mini van.... With that last thought I feel asleep in my car pulled over... I never wanted to wake up..

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Hey guys!
This is a new story I hope you guys are liking the first chapter!
Anyways, if you guts have any ideas lemme know! I already know where I want this story to go,but I could always use suggestions! Well anyways.
Love always,
Vanessa❤👍