"Was this all some kinda joke?!"
"Did all of this really mean absolutely nothing?!"
He smirked that devilish smirk that I soon began to hate.
"Oh kitten, you couldn't possibly think that I'd fall for a girl like you."
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I grab my bags and head over to my locker. I grab all my stuff and put back everything I don't need. After I'm done with that I check my phone.
From: Jay Bae🙄 Meet me and Tasha at the mall around 3:30! We've got some catching up to do hot stuff.
Laughing at his failed attempt in flirting I told him I'd meet them and head to my car.
Since it's only 2:15 I had about an hour before id leave my house. So I want to go home to go get ready and do some homework.
As I walked through the front doors I get pushed to the side and before I know if I'm pinned against the brick walls.
"We're going to talk now"
The deep voice whispered into my ear and it still sent shivers down my spine. What? No way.
"Actually your going to leave now." I said as I pushed his chest. But it unfortunately did no use as he didn't move an inch.
"Ariana you know we need to talk." He looked down at me with sympathetic eyes. Do we really need to talk though? Well yes. But what is he gonna say? What if he hurts me again? Well only one way to find out.
"Fine." I said and hope flashed through his eyes as he smiled widely. He mumbled something under his breath as he picked me up and went towards the parking lot.
"What the hell are you doing Alex?"
"I'm taking you too my car, we're gonna go to the cafe."
I didn't do anything until I realized that I had to meet my friends at the mall in like half an hour. I jumped out of his arms and looked up at him. Considering he's 6'4 and I'm 5'5. He's literally like a foot taller than me.
"Not now, I'm going to my house then to the mall. Bye." I said walking away to my car. "Then I'll follow you there."
What the hell. I'm hanging out with my friends. You know. Friend time. I turn around facing him. "Why the hell do you even wanna make up for this? I obviously wasn't even important to you before so why the hell would I believe I am now?"
He walked closer to me and grabbed my waist. "I just need to explain everything. I never I intended for you to get hurt. It was a dare remember? And if I didn't do it bad stuff would've happened. Please just let me go with you and I'll explain everything." We continued gazing into each other's eyes. We stay looking at each other. Me searching for any hints that he's kidding about everything. I'm the first to break contact looking to the side at a big willow tree. "Okay."
He smiles a small smile and tilts my head to look back at me. I immediately get out of his grip.
"Just because I'm letting you explain doesn't change anything between us." He looks down to the ground and nods sheepishly. "Just be at the mall by 3:25. You'll have 5 minutes to explain all of this bullshit." Then I turn around and walk to my car.
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As I'm driving I come to realization that my father will be home. He sent me a text earlier in the day saying he left work early. I pull up to my drive way and sure enough, his car is parked in the garage. I prepare myself for what's about to go down as I get out of my car. He should be asleep on the couch so I'll just get ready.
I push my door open he I stand corrected as he's sleeping on the couch with sponge bob on the television. I quietly shut the door and head up the stairs not making a noise. I reach the top of the stairs and head for my room. I set my bags on the ground next to my door then head to my closet. I'm feeling like black on black on black. Ya know what I mean?
I grab a black halter top with a black skater skirt and head to my bathroom. I take a quick shower and blow dry my hair. I quickly change into my outfit then go back into my room. I go to my shoe self and grab a pair of black booties. I check myself in the mirror then grab my bag and head out my door.
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I slowly make my way down the stairs and then look in the living room. I see my dads not there anymore and the tv is turned off. I'm guessing he left to like a bar or something. So I casually walk to my front door when I'm soon grabbed by my wrist and turned around forcefully.
Guess he's not at the bar.
"And where do you think your going looking like that?!" He screams in my face as he pushes me against a wall. "I-I'm just going t-to me-meet u up with some of my fr-riends." He pushes me again but this time I'm on the ground. I slowly get back up and step back. He stars screaming at me again. "Friends?! You? You have friends?!" And then he chuckles softly. "Look at you! You look like you came out of a garbage bin!" And then he pushes me again. I can feel my anger start to build up.
"Why are you like this?! Your so rude! You've been like this ever since mom di-" I scream at him but then I'm slapped across the face.
"DONT MENTION ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR MOTHER BECAUSE ITS ALL YOUR FAULT SHES DEAD! FOR ALL I CARE YOU CAN CUT YOURSELF! YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THE ONE NOT HER!" And then he rushes out of the house and slams the door shut.
Tears brim in my eyes and then start to fall. Because he's right. It's all my fault. If only I never called. And if only I stayed. Then maybe she would still be here.
I rush upstairs and into my bathroom. "WHY IS MY LIFE SO FUCKED UP!" I scream over and over again. I'm angry now and I don't know what to do. And his words play over in my head. 'Cut yourself' on replay. I start throwing stuff in my bathroom.
I open the sinks cabinets and tear down the curtains. I find a razor blade and hold it in my hand. I slide down the tile walls and bring the blade to my wrist. Each cut painful but satisfying. I promised myself I wouldn't do this again. But I can't hold it back anymore. I drop the blade and lay my head back on the tile wall.
Why me?
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A/N HI GUYS! Sorry this took so long I was really busy with school work but I hope this chapter is okay!
Thoughts on Alex wanting to explain?
Thoughts on Her dad saying those things and the abuse?
