reality

Chapter 1 : My Life

My names Scott.. I'm 17 years old 

Ever since I was about 10 years old I had this urge to play sports with my bestfriend Stiles..  As I got older I realized that I wanted to play on the cross team. I wanted to be known for the things that I could do..

 I was a bright kid I just needed someone to guide me and be their for me but nobody really cared enough to even ask me what was going on in my head. Ever since my father left me when I was younger it caused me depression nobody even noticed that i wouldnt eat or sleep at all or how i used to cry all the time it felt as if i wasnt even their. The only person who made me feel better was my best-friend he knew that playing the cross with me would make me feel a lot better so when we grew older we knew that that sport was for us...

my mother wasn't around because she worked all the time It made me really depressed too.. imagine the pain I had to go through every single day just because they weren't their most of the time my father wasn't their at all. I felt like they rather be out working or being gone than spending time with me...

 I started to get really sad to a point were  I didn't wanna get out of my bed I just wanted to sleep... sleep for a very long time and I was only about 7 years old when that started happening....  I know mom tires... she tries to be around me as much as she could but she knew it still hurt me to see her gone she knew how depressed i would get and she still had no choice but to leave..

what really sucked was she was only home twice a month she would come eat and than leave as soon as she was done. I couldn't even talk to my own mother I had no time.. I couldn't even start a single converstaion because every time I would open my mouth she would say "Scott let me eat and ill get right to you when im finshed I haven't ate anything and im starving " Than she would talk about the cross team and how perfect that would be for me and how exicted she is that I'm getting older so I can finally play. (my moms a nurse and her names Melissa ) She worked far away that's why she couldn't be around.

 I knew that when she was done eating she had to leave because her boss would call and something crazy would be needed at the hospital i think that's just an excuse for him to try and flirt with her..  but because i was a strong kid I valued her.. no matter how long she stayed with me. Seeing her face made me realize that she was the only thing i had besides  Stiles I was really greatful because of that that  .

Since my mom wasn't home most of the time most of the time i was at Stiles house. I basically lived their i sleeped and ate their just as if he was a brother to me and since his dad knew my mom he didn't mind. He was more of a father to me than my own.

I could still picture my father walking out of my life he took my heart with him because I havent felt a single thing since i was younger.

 Having him leave really screwed me over but i am who i am because of that.