Another tear falls, gleaming on my cheek,
So broken are my walls, my life is far too weak.
I don't think anyone will care, if I live or die,
Besides they are so unaware of the pain I feel inside.
My life never had a purpose, it was just a hated game.
I never meant to make a fuss, but this just couldn't stay the same.
So I made a careful strategy, I'd take away my life,
The only decision would have to be; rope, gun, pills, or knife?
My decision ever final, the knife would be the way,
My thoughts ever suicidal, I ignored the price I'd have to pay.
So I make a plan, set the date, write goodbye poems to you,
The final seal to my fate, maybe now your dreams can come true.
I know to you I was a pain, a child lingering in your way,
I made your Sunshine turn to rain, at least that's what I felt you were trying to say.
So on the day I ended my life, I decided to write your name,
So even in the end of life, my love for you would stay the same.
My love for you still stayed, you were still my world,
But a silent gasp escaped from me in my shock of pain, so in a painful ball I curled.
I chose to end my life,
A silent suicide,
Turns out you were going to ask me to be your lovely wife.
So instead of walking down the aisle, my father at my side,
There are tears instead of smiles; slow, deep, heartbreaking sighs.
I hear my friends all tell me, that if I would've stayed,
They would've loved to see the beautiful bride I'd made.
But I felt to hurt to call, To scared of your voice on the phone,
So I let my life and everything in it fall - And I slipped into death alone.
I'm regretting that final choice, The choice to run away and hide,
I lost my love, I lost my voice - I lost you, my heart and soul, In My silent Suicide.
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