Never had a friend or more

First kiss

Now I'm walking down the stairs, I'm scared and I don't want to go down there right now, literally.
It was 18th of Mars and I wasn't all alone at home but it felt like I was alone,I mean it doesn't sound that bad but I was alone like the most of my days. I'm sitting on my bed and I'm drawing my sketches on the sketchbook and hide it under my bed so no one would ever find it. "HAAAY!! Haven't you woke up yet?" My mom was shouting really load. I close my sketchbook and hide it away before she comes into my room, I heard her steps on the floor though, I guess she were mad, really mad. She walks in and then hits me again with the metal belt, "IT HURTS! IT HURTS A LOT, MOM STOOOP." I screamed.
I got out of bed and ate breakfast with mom and dad, it seems a little bit safe but I hope dad won't ask me something about school , damn it. If he do that I'm quite dead. And then the questions came out of nowhere.
"How's school? Did you do well in your exams? Well you ever have a GIRLFRIEND?." Dad asks.
I smile politely at Him and then answer. YEAH well , school is going well and I got straight As on my exams. I turn to look at my mom but she was behind me touching her belt again with that scary look on her face.
"What about a girlfriend?" He asked again. I was so nervous and I couldn't answer because I really am not into girls,yeah I'm gay.
He put his hand on my head then says "look at me." I looked at him and his eyes were so fucking scary, I was going to pee in my pants. Then he crashed my head and hit it on the table and push it really hard, I thought my head was going to explode. Then he releases it. "If I know that you do anything wrong , you know what I will do." Dad said.
I went to school , you know. I had no friends and I was totally alone. People in my school call me Mr. Bruise Because I always have bruises and it does look really bad. I walked in the hallway, and everyone's eye is looking at me, I can feel it.
But today I crashed into Anthony, he's a classmate that I used to be friends with. I dropped all my books and I looked at him with tears stuck on my eyelashes, knew he could see them but he didn't care and ignored me like always. I keep on walking while I wasn't watching my way I happen to crash into a boy who is honestly the most popular guy in the whole school, and I dropped my books again. His name is Evan I guess. He saw my tears falling and then He helps me picking up my books and because they were to much, he carried half of my books. HE IS A NICE GUY.
Well after that he started talking to me. He asked me what's wrong? And i just said "I can't tell you what's wrong if nothing is right." He laughed and said " where did you read that quote ? Hahahahah . You're such a fool." Ha pats on my head and then "see you around." He said.
No wonder he is so popular, he is nice to people. EVERYONE LIKES HIM.
After passing three lessons and my favorite time comes. It's not actually my favorite but it's lunch and I'm very hungry but I hope I have enough money to buy something. I have 10$ pucks, I think it's enough.
I'm just about to come in the school shop, them boom..... I got pushed and then threatened by a group of bullies and they took every cent that I had and I guess I got a new bruise. Evan happens to come to the fucking school shop and he saw me bleeding and tried to help me , then one of his friends says " why are you helping this Mr. Bruise ? ". Evan got mad and punched him in the face and then said " well, guess what? This Mr. Bruise has a name and it's Noah. Maybe you all should start calling him that."
He bought me a sandwich and I sat with him, his best friend apologized to me and said he'd never call me that. After school, I got my books and my stuff and yeah I'm going back home, this is the most scariest thing in the world. Going back home to my parents and probably get locked the whole day. But today one of the teachers asked me to stay after school , I told him I can't cause first I have to ask my dads permission.
The teacher said that we will meet tomorrow.
Before I went home my dad called me to come and help him carry the stuff he bought from the grocery store. I went there and I actually carried everything. My eyes caught Anthony's eyes and then he said hi to me , I said hi. Then we started to talk and he said he misses me but I'd never believe him again. I don't trust him anymore.
I got home , I'm just about to clean my room and then I turn back to find my dad behind me , he actually beat the hell out of me.
I'm laying on the floor and i can pearly breath. I can hear my heartbeats thought, there really load. I'M SCARED.
I'M SCARED. I can't move.
I laid down on the floor for like 3 hours , then I could move. My dad came back then he lift me up and punched me again. "Get yourself together." He said.
"Let me go then." I said. He laughed and walked out of the door.
I showered. I'm standing in front of the mirror and thinking damn, this is why I'll never have friends. I wore my black hoodie and my black sport pants. Put my hair back my ears.
I walked down stairs so that i eat my dinner with dad and mom, I sit on my seat and I'm eating my dinner, i finished my plate and I ask for a permission. " can I go to my room now? I need to do my homework... ( get interrupted)"
" Well first you gotta do the dishes and clean up the kitchen." Mom said.
"Yeah , cause I'd like to see this place shining." Dad says while smashing a cup into the wall.
"Yeah , sure I will."
I know they probably hate me and I'm not that good boy I guess. But I have to do everything that they says if I want to survive.
"What are we gonna do with him" - dad
"I don't know , put him in an orphanage I guess."- mom
" I suggest that we lock him up in the basement." - dad
"No, he can work and brings us money."-mom
"Okay then." - dad
I heard their conversation and then my dad comes into the kitchen and put his Hand on my shoulder and the other one is carrying something I couldn't see.
All that ha said was..."get a job from tomorrow and don't lose it."
I was scared he'd beat me up but he didn't... What a relief.
"Go to bed early." - mom shouting
But then I remember the homework that I haven't done yet. And thinking about how am I gonna get a job tomorrow, I guess I have only one day to find a job. I hope I get one.
I'm not going to do my homework right now. I'll do it tomorrow in the library. Good night.
Tuesday morning and all I can think of is how to get a job and how am I supposed to go to school and have a job at the same time. I ate breakfast and told mom that I'm leaving.
"Don't forget to find a job TODAAY." Mom shouted.
" I won't." I said and my heart is beating so fast and my breath's becoming heavier than ever.i don't know what am I supposed to do and my situation is got worse. I crush into Evan and then he holds me and says ."Are you having a panic attack?hay you !!."
"Noah look at me , you need to breath." - Evan.
I look at him while we are In The corner then he looked around to see if there is anyone.
He looks at me then he kissed me.
"Why did you do that ?." I asked.
"You know why, I needed you to stop breathing so the panic attack would stop." Says Evan while blushing.
"Yeah, off course I know that." My face turned all red... Damn it. That was my first kiss.
"Don't tell anyone about what happened, ok?"
"I won't." But in that moment I really wanted to jump on him and just kiss him again.
"Tell me why did you panic right now?."
"Promise me you won't tell anyone?"
"Yeah, I promise."
I told him everything about it.
"I'll ask my dad if you can work with him?"he holds out his phone and call his dad. He asked me if he can tell his dad and he promised that his dad won't say anything.
He's talking to his dad and then turns to me saying.
"Well, you've got a job!" He smiles
" EVAN, thank you, thank you so much. I literally own you a lot."
" why don't you come and hang with me today after school?."
"Hahahahah, you told me that I have a job." ...."I need to work Evan."
"Haha , I forget but we can hang out in school."
" do you really want to hang out with me?"
" YES. I do want to, is there a problem with that."
" No , but why would the most popular guy in school hang out with Mr. Bruise ?"
"You're not Mr.bruise and I am not the most popular guy in school..." He looks really mad.
" I want to be friends with you and I'm not lying to you." - he said.
"Ok, then let's be friends."
We went to school together, we sat in lessons together, ate lunch together and he got to know everything about me and I got to know everything about him too.
Sounds really fun.
School day is finished , and I tell him that I have to go home first and tell my dad about the job and come back.
"Can I come with you?" He said.
"Mmm , I don't know."
"Why not? Is there something wrong with your life?" He said.
I said that I told him everything but I didn't tell him about my life at home.
"Why won't you tell me about yourself and your life even your life at home?" He said.
" i don't want to tell you..."
"Why not? I won't tell anyone about it."
" if I tell you , you won't be my friend anymore... And I don't want that, so stay here."
" ok, then tell me about it when you're ready ok?."
" I will."
I went home and I told my parents that I've got a job, they were kinda surprised and they said that I should probably go now.
I came back to Evan and he smiled and said. " it won't alright, didn't it?"
" yeah it did, but you never told me what was the job?"