PINKY PROMISE (In progress)

By:Alyssa Duvall

I'm promise and ive been mute for roughly two years so i was considered mentally challenge, but my mom didn't let them label me she demanded i was in normal classes so they let me be after many months of arguing 6 to be exact. Lets go back to the beginning i was considered stupid because after two years ago my father had died and i haven't spoke a word Since. I got made fun of i guess sense i was mute i couldn't dress how i would like to. Of course just like all the other girls i liked to look impressive but instead i dressed worse than my 4 year old sister, Angel who dresses herself i might add. Now I'm getting ready, nothing special my hair up and eyeliner on my bottom lid then my mom yelled up PROMISE lets go! I grabbed my bag that was full with markers,pencils,paper and everything i would need for class. It was the first day of high school i was a freshman nervous and scared mainly because i had gym that day and changing in front of people i didn't like because i felt like they had better bodies and i would be judged. A girl that day made fun of me for the scar i had across my leg almost 5 inches even i never had worried about it until now. I had got it almost 6 years ago when i got cut by barb wheyier at our old farm while i was running with some neighbor kids across our field i didn't see it and fell. But thats when i met my best friend cierra she was pretty and not to mention the most popular girl in the school and no one understood why she talked to me even i didn't but i didn't ask however i could never ask i couldn't risk loosing the only friend i have. She stuck up for me and said some mean things to the girl who was tormenting me so that girl moved on to the next victim. Cierra always vented to me about everything i suppose i was a good listener. Then one day it happened she wanted to give me a makeover so i let her i looked amazing for once i felt as good as the popular kids my blonde hair was curled i had fresh makeup on my face i looked amazing then a tight/stretchy black dress we were on our way to a college party my first party at that. When we walked in i felt everyone looking at us cierra rocked it like she was on a cat walk with her long red hair about down to her butt curly. Well i just followed her then her boyfriend was their the quarter back of the football team, he looked so good he was in his letterman jacket and tight jeans. Before i knew it cierra hooked me up with her boyfriends friend his name was chad and we ended up dancing he kept rubbing his warm body onto mine. It was different but he was cute and nice not to mention his body was sexy. Everyone was looking at us admire our dancing but i felt as though they looked at me as if i was better than cierra it felt great. As all these images and words flowing through my mind it happened he kissed me i kissed him back and before you knew it he was buying me drink after drink until i was drunk then we all went down by the beach which was just in the back yard of the party we were watching the stars it was romantic i dont. Remember that much after that besides the fact we went skinny dipping. I somehow managed to end up at cierras house i guess her mom called my mom and said it was ok for me to sleep over and so i did.. The next day my stomach hurt i ran in the bathroom and it happened i threw up it was horrible but we got ready for school anyway this time i straightened my hair and and did my makeup really well it felt great walking into school when now everyone knows who you are then chad came up to me and pulled flowers from behind his back it

made me feel good i pulled him close to me and kissed his cheek he returned the favor but kissed me softly on my lips i giggled a little because he had a smudge of my lip gloss on himself so i softly whipped it off. Then it hapend my iphone went off it was a restricted text but it was a picture a picture of me!, skinny dipping the message read meet me after school in the alley way. COME ALONE at 12:21 and tell no one i will find out. I nearly panicked but i restrained my self from spazzing out, i couldn't believe someone actually hated me so much just when it was my moment to shine it was finally the end of the day and chad caught up to me and asked if everything was ok. I looked at him and smiled "everything is great. And everyone stopped and stared at me. I heard hush tons of people whispering * she can talk?!?!* *did i just hear her say something* It was clear now that i loved chad and felt it would be best to talk to him so we could have a healthy relation ship at this moment he was smiling ear to ear he just kissed me and asked me if i wanted a ride. It was so hard to deny but i had to i couldn't have my parents find out about us skinny dipping even the fact that i went to that party i told her i was at the library studying an the fact that i never lied before made her believe me. So i kindly told him i couldn't and that i would see him later. The look on his face was as if i was in trouble. Even though i told him i wasn't the truth was that i didn't know if i was in any real trouble or it was some kind of joke but, i didn't want to find out. From that moment on as i was walking out the school everyone tried talking to me but yet again i was mute not because i didn't enjoy the attention, everyone enjoys attention every now and then. At that very moment i was walking out the school when *SMACK* cierra came out of detention with her boyfriend they were arguing so i don't think they seemed to notice me so i just sat their for a minute before i new it was already 12:19 i ran out of the school because the alley was on the other side of the football field. Finally made it 12:21. I was exhausted but he was standing there and waiting, he was dressed in all black my heart raised as if i should turn and run or i should confront him but me i was no coward so i walked right up to him directly in his green eyes and he said lets talk business. As he pushed his body up against mine pulled down my skirt i was wearing that day of course that day cierra choose a thong that day just in case if chad saw it, i began to scream but no one could her me this alley way was by the empty town. While i was lost in thought and struggling to get away he pulled his pants down and was tormenting me even though he didnt do anything fter removing his pants. I cried and screamed but it was to late his pants were already down i was worried he was going to do something so i struggled but then he didnt do anything he pulled his pants up and put my skirt back onto my body i felt relief but all i could think about was chad. I was scared i couldnt rap my head around why he would do this he put his lips up to my ear and said your secrets safe with me tell anyone and you'll regret it, i know how to make your body never found i cried a little bit but before i knew it i had a ski mask over my head and he was gone i got up and fixed myself i couldnt go home like this my mom would know theirs something wrong so i went back into school but other kids new there was something wrong questions were being asked *did chad break your heart* or other ones like *she just broke a nail* before i knew what came out of another kids mouth cierra had slapped her so it must of been something terrible but I'm sure nothing could hurt me at this point cierra handed me her makeup bag and we went into the bathrooms i began to cry cierra wouldn't stop asking me but i couldn't tell her what happened i couldn't risk it. So i got up and fixed my hair and makeup thank gosh she always keeps a straightener with her so once i was done i tossed her the makeup bag and headed out of school yet again but this time i went home. My mom was impressed with my makeover and hugged me tight i smiled and walked up my stairs then i took out my diary and wrote word for word on what happened yesterday and today considering the fact i wasn't home to do it the other night. I put it behind my picture and locked it in my safe. I cried myself to sleep that night even though nothing technically happened i still felt threatened i ignored many facetimes and tweets from chad as well as cierra. When i woke up that morning i smelled breakfast, i looked at my clock it was 11:00. I was home?? Why!? I ran down the stairs and found my little sister watching A baby show i think it was barney. I went up to my mom with a look on my face, she quickly explained herself i made breakfast, and i felt me and you could have a girl day i could get you clothes and stuff your not my little girl anymore and i hear you have your first boyfriend he came by this morning waiting to give you a ride, he seemed very classy and handsome i told him you were fine that we were having a girls day so he told me to tell you to give him a call or text when you get the chance i smirked and hugged my mom ran upstairs and got my phone and sat down at the table then began to eat breakfast. After that a babysitter had arrived to watch my sister we waved to Them and quickly got ready put on my white jeans, Plaid shirt with a black tank top on fresh makeup on then ran downstairs and out the door then we got in the car and drove to the mall we shopped nearly to 9:00pm getting me clothes,underwear,bras and makeup as well as anything else i wanted it was exciting after that i got fitted in my favorite bra store and weighed my weight was exactly 100 lbs at 15 and my bra size was a full cup bigger than what i was wearing so they moved me up to a 32 D it fitted just right after that we got lunch at Chinese it was amazing i looked at my mom and told her i loved her and thank you. She nearly cried in shock that i could talk she kissed my forehead. On our way home we jammed out to my favorite music it was fun, i felt horrible because i had been ignoring chad all day i texted him and told him i was fine he texted "me good he was worried and i love you" i replied with I'm great and i love you too he called me after that i answered but quickly hung up because i had done it on complete accident. Before i new it i was home again and put all of my new stuff away and threw the ugly old stuff away and only kept the clothes i got from cierra and my new clothes while i was making my bed i must of managed to get into bed because i woke up the next morning with my alarm going off and a light on. I got ready but today more casual yet classy with my hair in a sock bun. Wash my face and makeup on as always then pink shirt with lace on the back and my black leggings and a scarf with many beautiful summer colors like pink,yellow,orange,red,purple,blue,green. I finally was ready with still a half an hour left before class i ate breakfast kissed my mom and got in the car with chad we talked for that 22 minutes i explained to him why i was or am mute and why i feel like i can talk to him. He smiled and kissed me just before we got out of the car to go to school. I had to go to my locker but told him he could go to class. Then i finally made it to first hour and was early too, i was happy to see a new student that they were showing around they called him stefan,he sat write next to me in geography, he seemed nice he had black hair and nice body with a black T-shirt and skinny jeans, he had green eyes. My heart nearly sank as i noticed the same green eyes that was in the alley he looked at me and had a smirk on his faced i just sat their waiting for the next bell it felt like it was going on for ever then it rang i couldn't get out of my seat soon enough. I quickly seemed to notice that if was a pattern he had all his classes with me and either sat next to me or behind me i felt a rush go over my whole body when the last bell rang i nearly fell getting up so fast and just when i felt i had to tell chad i couldn't believe it stefans locker was right next to my locker then it happened he made his move he put his arm on my locker closing it right after i had got the combination right he asked me on a date. I denied and told him i had a boyfriend but he didnt seem to care he texted me and told me time and night with a threat come or else i didn't pay any attention to it until, it came to the date i walked back and fourth nearly crying i decided i would be "sick" that day until i got a call he was in an accident,chad on his way to school i threw my iphone as hard as i could they didn't think he would make it and this was all my fault.i cried and cried cierra came over to my house after hearing the news i talked to her about my feelings then i grabbed her arm im gonna tell you something but you have to Pinky Promise not to tell anyone, she did and then i realized i could risk her life too so i made something up i said i forgot and then i sat on my bed but i must of sat on the remote because the tv turned on, i nearly blasted the volume after i heard they were talking about chad my chad they said that it was a hit and run and the only information that could be released right now was that the victim was in a comma but not looking good for a recovery a 97% chance he wouldn't make it thats when i lost it my mom came upstairs in panic and told cierra it would be best if she went home so she did but i stormed out of the room grabbed my car keys and drove up to the hospital with flowers a card and balloons my heart raced i was scared for him for us i parked and then i closed my eyes an waited for me to wake up but i didn't because this was a real nightmare i eventually got the nerve to get out of my car when *smack* i ran into that new kid. He smirked at me as i felt a twirling began in my stomach. He said clumsy much and helped me get up. I locked my doors to my car and fast walked into the hospital but by the time i was half way their he was already gone . I paused for a split second in complete utter shock. Then i ran in fear that he could still be there,when i got into the hospital everyone was staring at me as if i was a freak or something.