i was born with a pure heart mabait, sumusuno naman ako sa lahat ng gusto nila ha...
...pero.. why do i have to suffer from this kind of PAIN??
mabait naman ako, all i want to happen is for him to be happy, pero hindi ba pwedeng ako ang kasama niya pag sumaya siya??
tinawagan ako ni Gian, he said na Kean is marrying Dara..
..and it hurts, big time!!
dapat ako yun eh...
dapat ako ang bride niya...
pero bakit??
gusto kong umalis ditosa airport at puntahan si Kean, pero iniisip ko si tita, gustuhin ko mang bumalik kay Kean, gusto ko ding maging maayos sila ng mama niya...
...kasi alam ko 'mas' magiging masaya siya don.
*np: what are words?*
someone's calling me...
impossible?? how did he--
"COURTNEY!!"
naiiyak ako!! hearing his voice makes me want to burst into tears...
"kean..."
"Courtney!! where are you??"
aalis na ako...
"why did you call?? ikakasal ka na diba??" i manage to say
sorry Kean..
...i just want you to be happy.
"WHERE ARE YOU??"
"Courtney please..."
i'll miss this, hearing him calling my name, his sweet voice...
"three words..."
boom!! ang sakit!!
"kean...eight letters.."
di ko kaya, i want to let go of him pero di ko kaya...
i can't...
"Courtney, nasan ka??"
"bakit?? kasal mo na diba??"
"ikaw lang...ikaw lang ang gusto kong makitang naglalakad sa aisle...ikaw lang ang gusto kong maging bride...ikaw lang ang gusto kong maging asawa...maging wife ko...pero pano yun mangyayari kung aalis ka na?? nasan ka ba?? please...don't leave me Courtney.."
"i have to go Kean.."
"WAG!! di ko kaya.. i love you so much...that i can't live without you.."
"CC...we have to go.."
i just nod
"nasa airport ka ba??"
"yes..."
"wag kang aalis.."
"kean..."
lumabas ako...wala na akong pakielam kung maiwan ako ng eroplano, all i care is Kean...
"Courtney, wag kang aalis..wait for me..."
" i will Kean... eight letters..."
"three words Courtney, kay--"
"Kean!! Hello!!"
*boogsh*
"KEAN!! HEY!! MAGSALITA KA!!ANONG NANGYARI??"
sumisigaw na ako, wala akong pakielam kung pinagtitinginan na ako ng mga tao...
"KEAN!! WAG KA NAMAN MAG-JOKE NG GANYAN!! DI NAKAKATAWA!! KEAN!! HUY!! DIBA AYAW MO AKONG UMIIYAK, EH BAKIT KA NAMAN NAG-JO-JOKE NG GANYAN?? NAIIYAK NA AKO!! STOP KIDDING!! HINDI AKO NATUTUWA!! KEANNN!!"
"tulungan niyo yung lalaki mukhang masama ang lagay." i heardon the other line...
what?? what happened..
i have to go to Kean...
baka...baka napahamak siya..
naghahanap ako ng masasakyan, still, di ko in-end yung line, ayoko!1 baka biglang mag-salita si Kean, baka niloloko niya lang ako...
...gusto kong makasama si Kean...
...madami pa akong kelangan sabihin sa kanya..
..i want to say sorry, for what i did...
...i want to kiss and hug him, for letting him go...
...i want to say i love him....
...na hindi ko na siya iiwan, i want to be with h--
*boogsh*
i-i just want to be with him...
FOREVER...
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whahaha trying hard mag-drama si ako, ang panget pero gusto ko lng i-share !!
salamat !!
-Jasmine
