Every time I think about you not being on this earth anymore, i get a knot in my stomach
Every time I think about you not being able to smile one last time, I Furrow my brows
Every time I think about you not being able to follow your dreams or to travel the world or to grow old with the person you love, I get tears in my eyes
I am sitting here sad, upset, and angry at the world.
I start thinking about how strong you were. How much you loved. How much you cared. How happy you were, despite your obstacles.
I then remember what your smile was like. How you used to jam out to your favorite music. How you used to dance around and laugh and sing. How your eyes used to light up when you got excited.
I then start to smile.
