soft spot | pjm

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Tomorrow was my wedding day with Kim Taehyung. The man that I loved after a long time I couldn't sense love anymore. After... him.

He was the only one that I could love. I had never felt anything that related with love before him. He was my first love. And his name is Park Jimin.

The day before my wedding made me doing throwback a lot. And it actually was not good for my feelings. I should just focus with taehyung since he's now my one and only love.

Eventhough he doesn't have the same eye smile as him, the same height as him, the same high pitch voice like him, nor the same puffy cheeks as him. Kim taehyung is still the perfect one for me. Not Park Jimin.

He left me for another girl back then. How cruel was it? I couldn't stop crying like crazy and I was hospitalized for two weeks because I couldn't eat properly.

While thinking about the past I didn't realize that tears was streaming down on my cheeks. I did miss him. But I didn't wish he to come back. I was scared if he came, my feelings toward taehyung would be unsure. It's a big no-no since tomorrow was my wedding day.

I sat down on the sofa at the living room while watching some random movies. I didn't really pay attention at the television in front of me. I was drowned in my own mind until my phone was ringing.

*phone ringtone*

"Tae?"

"Babe, what are you doing?" , his voice made my heart calm.

"Just watching some random movies" , I chuckled.

"I miss you so much!!!" , he said with exaggerating it.

"Really? Just one day we don't meet??" , I giggled. How cute. This side of him that I loved the most.

"I miss you every second of my life, babeee~" , he always said the cheesiest thing but I'd always fell for it.

"See you tomorrow, taee" , I hung up the phone. I wanted to talk with him longer but there's a knock on the front door.

KNOCK KNOCK

"Wait! I'm coming" , I knew the guest won't hear it. I lived in an apartment so the door was soundproof.

Right when I opened the door, I was so shocked and I felt very weak. Like I could fall down right there. The figure that I was thinking, stood here right in front of me. I didn't know how to feel. I really didn't expect he's here. How did he know my address at the first place?

"Hi y/n" , he gave me his familiar smile but this smile was fake. I knew it is.

"J-jimin? W-what are y-you doing h-here?" , I stuttered a lot when I was nervous. And hell yeah, I was nervous as wreck.

"Mmm c-can I come in?" , I let him in and we both sat there on the couch. It was do awkward until he broke the silence.

"How's life?" , he looked up to me.

Did he really not know that I'm going to married soon? Like real soon? , "mine? Good. Never been this good."

"Glad to hear that" , he faked a smile again.

"H-how about you?"

"Miserable. So much. And I know tomorrow is your wedding day, y/n" , I could see his eyes was full of sorrows.

"Y-yeah, it is" , I simply answered.

"Congrats you've found your other half. I'm happy for you" , he offered to do a handshake. That hand used to be in my hold everyday. The hand that used to wipe my tears because of laughing. That hand.... I missed holding his hand.

I quickly replied his handshake, "thankyou, Jimin" , calling his name this way still felt strange. It used to be 'Jiminniee' or 'chimchim'

I continued, "but, why should you come here? right when I'm about to forget you?"

"You know, I want to apologize" , He looked down, "I feel so regretful because I left you. But it's not because of that girl. It's because my parents didn't allowed me to be in a relationship with you. I know you may not believe me right now, but I'm stating the truth. These years I spent so lifelessly. I kept on missing you until the point I was.. cutting.. I couldn't help it anymore y/n.. but I'm not asking you to come back to me. I just want you to forgive me" , I was so surprised hearing his explanation. He looked up and I could notice the tears streaming down on his cheeks.

I wiped it, "it's okay.. I understand.. I forgive you eventhough you left me without explaination.. just for you know, I will always have a soft spot for you.. however is it" , I gave him my sincere smile.

He smiled and now it's not fake, "i'm really thankful.. I shouldn't said this, but.. I love you. I still do" , he looked at my eyes and I knew he's being honest.

All of the memories were playing in my head, "I still do too.. but not as much as I used too.." , I sighed , "taehyung gives me the love that I need.. he makes me feel complete"

Jimin nodded, "so that's the guy's name. I'll pray for the best for you two" , he ruffled my hair. How I missed this.

"And I-i know I s-shouldn't ask this.. b-but.. may I k-kiss you? For the last time I swear" , he asked unsure while I was biting my lips. Didn't know what to answer too.

"I-i'm not sure" , I looked at his eyes and I missed him so much , "b-but.. oka--"

Before I could finish my word, his lips was already attached with mine. This was the lips that I missed for a long time. The butterflies still errupted in my stomach but my feelings toward him wasn't as much as back then.

He's still a good kisser and I knew he would always be. He knew how to kiss his beloved one. And after a few minutes he pulled away.

"I'll apologize to taehyung" , he said guilty.

"No! No.. it's okay.. i'll tell him by myself" , I assured him.

"Thankyou.. I guess I should go now?" , he stood up and I followed him.

I nodded, "yeah and can you come to the wedding tomorrow?" , I gave the invitation that I prepared by myself. There's written for 'Jimin and partner'

"Oh okay" , he smiled and turned around.

I had an urge to back hug him for the last time. So I did. I hugged him from behind and it seemed make him startled.

"Y/n?" , he turned his head to look at me.

"I miss you.. this is the last time" , I said truthfully.

He turned around and wrapped me into his warm hugs. Really warm. "Last time"

"You'll find your other half too.. i'll pray for you too" , I said between the hugs.

"Good night" , he kissed my forehead. For the last time.

And by that he went back to his own place which I didn't know where.

The next day I saw him coming to the wedding and I was glad. I introduced him to taehyung and unexpectedly they became close because they had the same age and they shared same hobbies.

I couldn't be any happier than this.

End.

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Author's note :

Maybe some of you already know I'm hospitalize right now because of DHF:(
And I just randomly write this because I want to make an angst hahah is this sad enough?

Anyway, y/n is your name hehe

I hope you like it!:)

Cover credits to seulgivevo♡♡ thankyou:)