The alcohol goes down easy
I'm starting to feel sleepy.
I'm so light weight
It's already hit me.
I'm lost in my own world
I can't feel my hands and feet.
When the bottle and my lips meet
It's a party till 3 in the morning.
I then inhale the blunt
Remember I'm already drunk.
I exhale making haloes
The smoke drifts slowly.
Here comes the shrooms
I'm chewing them.
I'm wasted, smoking blunts and doing shrooms.
20 minutes later
I'm seeing clowns and unicorns.
I found my way home
What did I do?
I did this all for you
I wanted to forget you.
I wanted to forget the pain.
I fucked up really bad
I'm sorry ugh.
I can't go back to self harm
So I decided to start drinking.
It's all so clear to me
I'm balling my eyes out.
I'm so scared
Why am I doing this?
The memories all come back
They all torture me.
I want to run away
I want to be alone.
Everyone around me starts laughing
Calling me a sluty whore.
I'm drowning in tears and pain.
The one I want to forget
I wish was there to hold me.
I'm so confused and lost
No one to guide me the right way.
Please everyone forgive me
I'm just stupid that's all.
Go ahead hate me
I deserve it.
I can't breathe
These tears are creating a river.
Surrounding me are my thoughts.
I honestly can't believe I did this
I'm so sorry.
I'm never doing this again.
Thank you to all my friends
You helped me get through this.
I couldn't of done this without you.
