Little Wilder

II

I took my clothes off, turn off all of the lights and went straight to bed. Usually, I wear pyjamas, but that day I so tired I couldn't even think of taking another step. It had been a long journey, and not only was the journey that get me tired, but my entire life in general. I was sick and exhausted of most of it, and I really needed to shut my eyes, rest my body and sleep. My entire existence was going against me, and not just myself, but everything that was involved with me. My father, my mother, and even my brother, who had made of his life a bloody circus, even him had the guts to judge me and my decisions, so you might guess that I was feeling crappy, and terribly lonely. Not much of a difference from how I was feeling back home, but at least I didn't had to add angry, repressed and disgusted. Which was much. But I guess back home I knew people, I could go to parties, I could drink my ass off, I could have sex with any girl I wanted, when hire it is actually going to take me some time to adapt, since high school starts in a week, and I know no one who can introduce me to...well, people.

Only I set head in the sweet pillow, I hear the balcony window opening. I thought fuck, the universe, God or whatever was really conspiring against me. I couldn't distinguish who was it that was entering the room because there was no light at all, all I saw when I opened my eyes was black. Nevertheless who was it wasn't important and didn't matter much, the only thing I wanted to know was why the hell was it in the bloody room? I really needed my sleep and just when I'm about to get some sweet, sweet sleep, someone enters and ruins everything. I was mad.

"Who the hell are you?" I asked loudly and not a little mad.

The person who sneaked in obviously didn't knew I was there before I asked the question, because when I did it gasped in surprise. My guess was that it was a girl, since its silhouette was skinny and curved and seemed to have hair, besides in my life I've herd girl gasps, and it pretty much sounded like a girl's.

"Jeez. You scared me" she said laughing. My guess was right, she was definitely a girl, unless a boy could achieve such acute tone.

Still mad, I turned on one of the lamps beside the bed so I could see who she was, and so I could talk properly. Trust me, it is hard talking to someone in the dark, and even harder when you don't know who you are even talking to, not to mention that is also quite uncomfortable and strange. I needed to see who I was dealing with, and look at her eyes with desperation so that she could get the fuck out of the room and let me get the sleep I deserved.

As soon as I turned my head to face her and start to punish her with guilt, I saw a girl that had to be little Wilder...like an actual girl. No boy clothes, no hair tied in a ponytail, nor purple and red bruises all over her face, like she used to. Like an actual girly girl. And man, she was pretty. Alicia Wilder had kept her unique green blueish, blue greenish eyes, gold long hair, and few freckles, what was brand new in her, other than her dressing taste, was her smile. Never, in all the many years I spent with her, have I ever seen her smile. Yeah, maybe some small little curve in the edges of her tiny lips, but never actually a genuine smile. It was wired at first, I almost didn't recognise her because of it, but I kept looking at her face just to make sure it was a smile and not some sort of wired face expression, but no, it was a smile, and it suit her.

"What?" She asked between laughs.

"Nothing. Nothing really, I just can't believe it's really you...little Wilder" I respond smiling.

"Oh my god. Nathan" Alicia said in that tone you have as soon as you realise something obvious. "Of course. My mom said you'll be hire, but I totally forgot. That's why she was so mad"

"Yeah. You should probably fix that" I told her a little bit more serious. Lucia really seemed mad when she didn't assisted to eat the giant turkey, which seemed more like an incredibly large sized pig with the shape of a chicken.

"Tomorrow. But first..." She tells me mysteriously right before running as quickly as possible all the way from the window to the bed, which I might add was a pretty long distance, and jumping to it, just so that she could hug me instantaneously like if Alicia Wilder had missed me, which I doubted.

I didn't quite understand why was she so nice and warm to me, coming from Sophia I'd understand, she was always the hugging and kissing type, but little Wilder wasn't, she barely to touched me when we said hello or goodbye, so why in the world would she have done that. We were never exactly what you would call friends, we never really had an actual conversation in which we share our feelings and suddenly became bonded for life, and we sure as hell didn't have some sort secret language that only the two of us knew. All we ever did together was stare at the stars, and I'm pretty sure I cadmired them as far away from her as humanly possible, and I only stared at them because I never seem to have much of a choice, it was that, or going with the ladies for some lady talks, and we all know how that could have ended. Was I missing missing something? Where we bff and I totally forgot? Maybe she was just happy to see a good old neighbour, that's all. Yeah, that's it.

When she ended the long, long, almost interminable, hug, she stared at me with that smile I was starting to get used to, and kissed me on the cheek. Then, she stands up, and walks towards the door.

"Goodnight, Nathan" she tells me right before she shuts the door behind her.

"Goodnight" I say confused once she left.

I really didn't want to think anymore, my head was aching, my eyes were closing, and my mind was far out of reach. As much as I wanted to make sense out of what just had happened, it seemed more than simply impossible, it was a not going to happen so infinite that I had no other choice rather than just rest, and leave all my unfairly big problems waiting for me to worry about until tomorrow. They were not going anywhere, so why wasn't I just sleeping so I could get a way better solution, or explanation to? They are not going anywhere. So I just tuned off the lamp, and slept...I'll figure it out in the morning, maybe.