IDGF IF ANYONE READS THESE OR NOT JUST SAYING
so it MARCH 31 , 2016 im sitting in my living room wondering why ? u may say why what but idk just why? like why are we here and why are people the way they are but most importantly why people get mad at me and stop being friends with me when my relationship fails , i mean i did all i could to make him happy i even came out on facebook so i could be with him at school and stuff but yet he breaks up with me and im still the bad guy like wtf why what did i do. im the one who got their fucking heart broken and shit but im the bad one and i was nothing but good to him i always tried to talk to him but he would go weeks without talking to me but im the bad guy. thats what i dont understand i can be loyal and fathful 100% but they break up with me im the fucking bad guy how does that work i mean really bitch. life is so fucking stupid i wish i could fast forward to when im in college and dont have to worry about drama and shit. unfortunately thats impossible and ik i may act all happy and stone cold but im not and these people know that but dont care if they hurt me or not. but idfc anymore all i wont if for my best friend to move back like he said he was over 4 months ago. im like totally in love with him and when ever i think of him i get really sad but if im at school i dont show it because people are already calling me faggot and shit it dont bother me but i dont like it either and i honestly 100% dont fucking care if im going to heaven or hell ima let life run itd course and find out. i hope it leads me back to my best friend but then again i dont because it hurt loving someone that will never love u the same but it hurts more knowing there right there in front of u but u can never reach out and grab them. but yea.......................................i think this is shorter then the other ones sorry.
GOOD NIGHT
KOLE CORDELL
