I'm just an ordinary woman.
I am normal.
I love.
I smile.
I laugh.
I cry.
Now...
I loved.
I smiled.
I laughed.
I cried.
And...
Looking forward to love again.
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In my twenty years of existence, I realized that life is just a cyclical thing. We keep on doing things that we already did.
I'm not in good shape today, especially my pumping machine which feels like it was being deformed.
I loved my parents but why did they leave me at a very tender age? I'm only four when my Momma left me. Tatay followed when I'm ten.
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but death is inevitable...
The greatest thing to do is to accept, move on and be normal again after wasting some liters of tears.
One Christian pastor said that we must not weep if we lost a beloved because it's too late. While s/he is still alive, we must show that we care for him/her and we love him/her.
What's the use of too much flowers if it will serve 'only' as an ornament in his/her 'box'? (you know what I mean).
I don't want to go far from that.
I had my first love. But he left me also.
I thought he's going to be with me 'til we die but I guess, GOD has a better plan for me.
Then, after three years of moving on, finally I became happy again.
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I fell in love with my college bestfriend.
He's witty.
He's handsome.
He's nice.
He's cute.
He's kind.
He's simply a man to be proud of.
And...
He's BUSY.
Too much busy that he has no time for me.
I cry every night because it hurts me.
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A lot of random thoughts fill me.
NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.
And today, August 25 2013, I made a decision.
Decision to move on again though I didn't say goodbye to him.
I got up on my bed.
I opened my Facebook account.
And I deactivated it.
I looked at my cellphone, trying to do the same thing which I did in my Facebook.
But how can I deactivate it?
It can't be deactivated.
I decided to turn it off.
I ejected the sim cards and kept them.
For me, it's the ending of our communication but the beginning to see what's really missing.
Am I missing him or it's me who is really missing?
"Too much love can't kill me but I guess it can drive me crazy."
For those who can't understand this thought, I guess, you're not into a deep relationship YET.
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I realized also that the most important love to keep is GOD's LOVE. It never fails.
:)
- MAC
SALAMAT PO SA MGA MABASA SANI. DIOS MABALOS.
