MY RESPONSE with a POETICAL FLAIR

My Dawn

The night draws near,
My endless fears abound,
Not making a sound. ..
Lest I be found guilty in my sin,
What a way to begin,
That controlled feverish descent,
Cuddled from within,
Cradled behind your protective wall,
Huddled scared in a space you made so small,
There's barely enough room to store all that you feel,
All that you know to be real,
A senseless lack of feeling, a lack of trust...still you know that you must,
You scan the horizon, the forbidden, your home,
Where your a ghost within all you've ever known,
The seeds of dysfunction sown long ago thrive,
Like an out of control nest,
A sibling rivalry, parental jest,
You wander down a hall that you gave up noticing long ago,
The death March you've walked for so long one you'd rather not know,
Into a silence that cannot be heard only felt,
You hear the deafening noise as you close the door,
Staring into the darkness as you hit the floor,
Just like a million times before,
You know this times different then 999,999 lies,
You reach for the peace you've been storing up pills for..
Tears fall and you remember a saying saw written long ago. ..
#StayStrong&NeverDoubtYourself
You tried to recall where you had seen that hope,
..oh, hope was found at wattpad The Support Group found
@TeaAndSympathy works page.
Now I can put down my lost emotions,
Knowing now I'm not alone Ive found support,
I can give myself that second chance,
That smile as I move forward to advance,
In my life I've filled in rage,
My guided cage self locked and sealed,
Only thing I can feel,
Only thing I know to be real,
As I look up into my darkened, cloud filled sky,
I let a tear escape, maybe it's not to late for me to realize my forgotten dreams,
My midnight scheme's,
My all in all my every waking happiness,
Everything that I would miss,
My true smile, my bliss, bubbling laughter I'd surely miss...
Tho my day is troubling and long, I made myself a promise,
A promise that I'd stay strong,
I gave myself a true gift,
One I wish I would have given myself a long time ago,
The right and respect that nobody else have to me,
A right that I deserve,
Have earned, my scars tell me that's true...looking up at you I see all that you will never be,
I walk away now. ..
Now I'm free..
Just to be. .someone that I should have given the chance to become a long time ago,
ME.

and fuck...I lost my train of thought. Don't you just hate when that happens! ! It must be my tears. ..😇💋❤