I dont want love
Not if it means a broken heart
I dont want friends
Not if it means akward silence
I dont want to be cool
Not if it means i have to be fake
I dont wanna talk to you
Not if it means ill lose you
I dont want to like you
Not if it means you wont like me
I dont want to eat
Not if it means ill feel guilty afterwards
I dont want to cut
But i know it will feel so good, i dream about it endlessly
However nothing numbs the pain for me
Not even my salty tears or my unspoken fears not my hidden trails and not my past of fails
I dont want to
Because i am scared
