O(A)ppa (11-20 Chapters)[2/4]

“Why Can’t I??

Jaejoong doesn’t know what to do. He feels like everything that he does after reading the message is awkward. He is confused whether to admit that he has read the message or not because he is afraid that Yunho can read his heart since he can’t hide it and it will be more pitiful for him. He is also afraid that he will add some burden on Yunho’s shoulder with his true feeling for Yunho.

He takes a deep breath and then, he decides to tell Yunho about the message. Maybe we as the readers wants Jaejoong to ignore the message and maybe we agree if he erased the message and pretended that nothing happen after then. However, once again, he is the kind-hearted Jaejoong. Even though he is crazy in love with Yunho, he will never prevent Yunho to reach his happiness for his own sake. Even though he has Yunho’s baby inside his stomach, he will let Yunho be happy with his own choice. What a pity situation for Jaejoong and the readers.

“Oppa..you have a message..”, say Jaejoong from the living room.

“Wasn’t it from Yoochun???”, ask Yunho a bit shouting since he is in the bedroom packing all the stuff.

“No…it wasn’t..”, reply Jaejoong simply but he can hear clearly that his heart is crashed into pieces just like a shattered glass on the floor.

“Okay..I’ll come right away..”, say Yunho and then, he zips the luggage and goes to the living room after then.

“So..that bastard hasn’t replied my message yet, huh???”, jokes Yunho while taking his cell phone from the table.

Jaejoong looks away and takes a breath as deep as he could when Yunho reads the message. The words “you have to be strong” is keep playing on his mind. He looks at Yunho with his fake and forceful smile after then. When he does it, Yunho looks at him back with a guilty expression on his face and that’s what Jaejoong hates the most. He hates when he can’t hide his feeling and let people pity on him just like what Yunho doing right now.

“What’s wrong oppa??”, ask Jaejoong still with his fake smile.

“Ooo..mmm..aaaa…”, reply Yunho uncertainly because he doesn’t know what to say or explain to Jaejoong.

“Ahhh!! I forgot!! I’m warming the soup that auntie brought to here for you..wait a minute Oppa!! I have to go to the kitchen now…”, say Jaejoong hurriedly to get away from the awkward topic.

“Ooh??okay…”, respond Yunho still with his guilty face. He sits at the chair and let out a heavy sigh. He doesn’t expect that she will send him a message after a year she left Seoul. She isn’t his girlfriend but she is her crush just like what he wrote on her caller id in his cell phone. If she was his crush, how about Jaejoong???

That question is the one which keeps wandering on his mind. He looks at the back that he can say he is familiar with from the living room. Then, he looks at the message that he has been waiting for since the girl left Seoul to USA. If you remember, this girl was the Seoul’s dongsaeng who many of Yunho’s fans agreed if Yunho dated her because they were claimed as the best couple.

Meanwhile at the kitchen, Jaejoong warm the soup that actually he has just warmed it. He lied at Yunho because he was afraid that he couldn’t handle that awkward situation. Therefore, he decided to get away from it. He looks at the boiling soup expressionlessly. He is out of space and his mind is totally blank. He doesn’t realize that the soup has already boiled because his mind is going somewhere.

“Aahhhhh…”, scream Jaejoong when the hot soup get in touch with his flawless hand.

“Uuuh….hot…uuuhhh…”, continue Jaejoong panicked while blowing his red hand.