Her Catholic Heart

Chapter 3- Kelly

I was staring out my window looking at the night sky. It was 10:40, but I wasn't tired and had no plans, other than moving my things out into the truck on Sunday, so I decided to get some private time for myself where I could breathe.

I went into my nightstand and grabbed my journal, pen, lighter, and a pack of cigarettes, which were all in a small bag I bring everywhere. Then I opened my window and climbed out onto the small part of my roof that's connected to it. Then I sat near the edge of the roof there the gutter was, and pulled everything out, and lit my cigarette. After I grabbed my journal and wrote a bit about what has been going on. Once I got to Kelly, I stopped and felt a tear fall down my cheek.

Even though I had dated Jessica, I still had some feelings for Kelly. She and I met in kindergarten, and I had liked her ever since I've really discovered my sexuality. I always thought that people liked their best friends so I thought it was normal, but after the sex ed videos and all of that, it became more apparent that long hugs and pecks on the cheek weren't only child's play. That's when I realized I liked her, but I never said anything.

I took a deep breath in, taking in all the smoke I could and felt it swirl in my lungs and I let it out and broke down. My mother knew I was lesbian, and she knew how I felt for Kelly, and well, everything else about me. But nobody else in my family knows. Then suddenly, there was a knock on my window and I jumped. I fumbled my journal in my hands and looked over ripping out the cigarette from my mouth and pressing it against the side of the gutter to put it out.

When I looked over, my mom was at the window. "Hey Gabe, it's almost 12, you should sleep."

"No. I'm fine." I looked away into the street. I felt like a wreck but only because of what has happened, not because of a lack of sleep.

"But we have a busy day tomorrow and you need sleep." My mother persisted.

"Why? Just so I could leave my life? Mom, It just started and now this is happening. I don't even know anymore." Another tear fell down my cheek as I recalled Kelly leaning into me, and kissing right before she ran off and left me to try to start a new life. "Just leave me alone mom." Then I pulled down my window, leaving only a small crack as my mom frowned at me.

She walked away and I pulled out my lighter again, relit my cigarette and took in another puff. I laid down on my back and looked at the sky as smoke swirled from my mouth in the air.

After finishing my cigarette I got up and slipped into my room, then grabbed my fire escape ladder and climbed down. Then I walked towards Kelly's house a few blocks away, I saw her bedroom light on. I climbed her fence into the side yard then climbed up the ladder she always left for me to climb to her room.

As I slowly climbed, I wondered what she could be doing. Maybe sleeping, watching Netflix, possibly even giving herself a new tattoo with the tattoo kit I had given her for her birthday last year. I remembered her giving me a tattoo just earlier this year.

~Flashback~
I was looking down at Kelly as she leaned over between my legs and inked my skin right where my panties line was. Kelly was always a good artist so I was comfortable with her doing it, even though it was her first time ever doing one, and I had no clue what it was she was creating. But when she finished she wiped off my skin with a light towel she had and said: "Done, wanna see?"

I nodded my head and sat up, unable to read it upside down, she read it to me. "Friends are Forever, Especially when it's Love." She looked up and smiled at me weakly. "It's because I figured we have been so close our whole life and I love you like a sister. You know?" And I hugged her and nodded.

"Definitely." Then she pulled away smiling and begun to wrap up my new calligraphy style tattoo.
~End of Flashback~

Then I got goosebumps from the memory. Remembering the feeling of the needles piercing my skin in such a sensitive area, while she touched my skin. I continued climbing the ladder and once I got to her window I smiled as she stood in the middle of her room. The wall was white but there was something new about it. There were dark gray lines covering it and she held a pencil in her hand as she stared at it.

Then I knocked on her window which made her jump. She looked at me with wide eyes and covered her mouth with her hand, and I gestured for her to unlock the window. When she came over I opened it and she stepped away towards her door.

"Kelly." I was quiet and her eyes begun to water. I walked closer to her and she backed up a bit more. "How do you feel about me?" She slightly smirked while pressing her lips together breaking our eye contact, and then she bit her lower lip looking back into my eyes.

She broke a smile and without any form of hesitation, I pushed her up against her door and held her wrists up against it while smashing my lips into hers. We made out for a while till I dropped my hands and locked her bedroom door and kissed down her neck towards her breasts when she let out a small moan.

Then I picked her up and tossed her on her bed and let our hormones take us through the night.

~Later that Night~

I had my left arm behind my head while Kelly laid on me and my right arm wrapped around her. Her long dark hair was messy and her body was hot against mine. "So tell me what you're doing on the wall."

"Well, I'm going to make a mural of the ocean and its creatures all under a sunset with lots of pretty colors."

"Cool, it will look nice, just like your art always is." She looked up at me and I looked at her and her face turned red and I kissed her forehead. "I promise I will come to visit as much as I can okay?" I hugged her tight and looked over to her bedside table and saw her alarm clock. It was almost 5 am, and I had gotten to her house about 4 hours before. I then got up and turned off her bedroom light and laid back in her bed with her and spooned her, and as she begun to fall asleep, I began to doze into darkness.