Little Bit Stronger (BoyxBoy)

Little Bit Stronger

Niall’s POV

Niall was on his way to see management. He was going to talk to them about leaving the band. Niall had thought about it long and hard and he couldn’t deal with his heart breaking anymore. He had had his heart broken seven times in the past three years. Who could have done this you asked? Well that is easy, his band mate Harry Styles. Niall and Harry had been off and on again for the past three years, and every time Harry had found a new way to break his heart and Niall decided that he had had enough. So here he is, outside the door to management.

“Well, here goes nothing,” Niall said to himself.

His meeting with management went better than he expected. They were upset that he wanted to leave but they told him if he ever wanted to come back he could. They didn’t even ask why he wanted to leave, they just went along with his wishes.

Since the rest of the boys were away doing their own thing, Niall decided it would be best to leave them a letter and pack up all of his things. They were in the middle of a tour but had the day free since they didn’t have a concert until that night. Management was sending someone to pick him up and take him to the airport.

Niall couldn’t help the tears that were falling down his face. His heart breaking just a little bit more knowing what he was doing to the band and more importantly Harry, but he didn’t care. Just like Harry didn’t care that he was breaking Niall’s heart.

“Well, that should be everything, better start writing that letter.” He said to himself.

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Before he knew it, Niall was at the airport waiting to board his plane that would take him back home. He already had called his family and told them what was going on and they couldn’t wait for him to be home.

The flight home was a long one and Niall couldn’t help but remember all the times that Harry broke his heart. To Harry they didn’t seem all that bad, but to Niall, they were all terrible. The one that stung the worst was when Harry told him that he could never love someone as pathetic and unattractive as him. That was their last break up and Niall cried for days. None of the other mates knew about it even though they tried to ask. Harry had been playing with Niall’s heart for too long and Niall wasn’t going to let him toy with anymore.

Niall arrived at the airport in Dublin and looked around to where his mother would be. He smiled when he saw her familiar face with arms open wide to greet him.

And I’m done hoping that we can work it out
I’m done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around

 

Harry’s POV

Harry was down. He had been down ever since he said those horrible things to Niall the week before. He never meant anything that he said and he wanted to take it all back. Well today, he decided was his chance to do exactly that. Harry had spent the day deciding what he was going to say to Niall, how he was going to apologize. He decided to just wing it and whatever happened would happen.

Harry met all of the guys back at the bus. Louis came up to Harry with anger in his eyes and Harry was wondering why.

“WHAT DID YOU DO?” Louis shouted at him.

“What are you talking about?” Harry shot back. Louis was just getting angrier by the minute.

“Because of you, Niall left the band,” Louis snarled.

Harry’s heart dropped. Niall left the band? Why would he do that?

“What do you mean he left the band?” Harry asked sunken.

“Why don’t you read this and find out,” Louis said shoving a letter into his chest.

Harry opened the letter and began reading.

Hey guys and Harry,

I wrote this letter to tell you that I can’t be in the band anymore. I’m sorry that you have to find out this way but I had no other choice. I couldn’t be in the band anymore and wake up knowing that my heart was broken and breaking even more from just looking at him. I’m just a pathetic and unattractive loser that nobody could ever love so I know that you guys will be just fine without me. I already told management what is going on and they agreed to let me go and said that I could come back whenever I wanted to. The thing is, I DON’T and WILL never come back. My heart has been broken to many times to a man where my love for him went unrequited. I’m done hoping that he could ever change and I know my heart will never be the same, but I have to move on otherwise I will just drag the band down even more than we already are. I am deeply sorry and I know you guys won’t care that I am gone, so good luck with the rest of the tour and good luck with your future. I know you will find someone to replace me who is a lot happier than I could ever be and laugh at everything that I used to laugh at. Don’t bother trying to call or text me begging for me to come back because I have already changed my phone number and my parents and I have talked and we decided to move to make sure you guys don’t show up and try to bring me back. Goodbye and good luck.

Sincerely,
Nialler.

Harry’s heart dropped and tears were in his eyes. Niall left the band because of him and now he had no way of apologizing to him. This was all his fault. He even used the words that Harry had said to him the week before.

I know my heart will never be the same
But I’m telling myself that I’ll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Niall’s POV

It was a month ago that I left the band. It was getting harder and harder to get up every day not having Harry by my side but I was getting stronger without him. I haven’t cried in what feels like forever but that is always a good thing.

I climbed out of bed and brush my teeth to get ready for work. It doesn’t take me long to get ready and I grab my keys and head out the door.

I turn on the radio and then “Little Things” is playing on the station and it reminds me of you. I listened to it for a short while but then I changed it because I didn’t want to be reminded of you. I heard from management that Harry is trying to reach me but I don’t want to talk to him anymore.

“I’m getting stronger without you baby,” I whisper to myself and for once in the first time in weeks, a smile appeared on my face.