Rewind

Paradise lost

Love,a short word with such a big meaning.

"I will love you until my last breath."




"I love you,Kookie." Taehyung said leaving a cast kiss on Jungkook's pink lips.
"I love you too." Jungkook dived down capturing his lover's lips again,still hungry for Taehyung's sweetness. It didn't take long for his tongue to break through the older's weak defense and start to explore the familiar territory.
"Kookie...stop....please." Tae managed to say between pants. Jungkook's kisses always left him breathless. "I need to go." He lightly pushed and pulled onto Jungkook's shoulders trying to make him stop but at the same time not wanting him to let go.
"Already? But you just got here." The younger whined pulling the other into his arms.
"I know and I'm sorry." His words got muffled by his boyfriend's firm chest.
"Please stay with me. Stay the night." Jungkook pleaded tightening his embrace around Tae's body.
"I'm sorry,I can't. I have things to do."
In the end Jungkook released a defeated sigh and let him go.
"I'll see you tomorrow." Taehyung gave him another kiss on the cheek this time.
"Ok,tomorrow then." Jungkook accompanied him till the front door of his apartment and stood there watching until the latter disappeared from his view. Jungkook was a little sad because Taehyung wasn't spending so much time with him lately.


Taehyung was on the busy street trying to get to his destination.
"I'm sorry Kookie,but I'm doing this for you." He missed Jungkook so much but he needed to do it just for a little longer.
He stopped in front of a coffee shop. After taking a long breath in he entered it.
"Hey Taehyung. You remember the room?" A guy with silver hair asked. At first sight he looked really intimidating.
Taehyung just nodded.
"Wait for me there."



The next morning like usually Jungkook waited for Taehyung to come to his apartment and have breakfast together. He waited and waited.
The clock was signaling 11:25 am and there was no trace of Taehyung yet.
Annoyed and worried at the same time,Jungkook took out his phone and dialed his lover's number. The call got delayed to voicemail.
He tried again and again but still the same result,he couldn't get to his boyfriend.
"What's going on? I hope he is ok. I miss you Tae."

Tired of knowing nothing about Taehyung he left his apartment and headed to Tae's home. He knocked on the door but it looked like no one was there. He even called Jimin,Taehyung's best friend,hopping to find out something but it was useless,neither him knew about Taehyung's whereabouts.

It was already evening and still nothing. He had called him a thousand times,failing every time.
Jungkook couldn't stop then to feel like an overprotective boyfriend,he was scared this had never happened before,not speaking with Tae for more then 7 hours.
He was sitting on his couch looking at his phone,watching every second pass by.
It was nerve wrecking.
"I will try once again,for the last time."
His heart made a somersault at the first ring.
No voicemail. Finally.
After the fourth ring Tae picked up.
"H..hello!" His voice sounded weak and tired.
"Tae,are you okay? Where are you? Is everything alright?"
"Yeah,Kookie. Don't worry."
"I can't stop worrying Tae,you know I love you too much. Can I see you?"
"I don't think I can get there. I'm sorry."
"Tomorrow?" Jungkook was really desperate now,he needed Taehyung so much.
"I'll try."
"Promise?"
"Promise."
"I love you Taetae."
"I love you more."

When the call ended Jungkook sighed dejected. A day without his Tae was like a night sky without the moon,dark and lonely.
Jungkook couldn't wait for tomorrow.


Cursed destiny or bad luck followed Jungkook the next day too and it got on for a week. They didn't see each other at all. Every time Jungkook called Taehyung, the latter was always busy,always telling him that he couldn't make it.
To say that he wasn't starting to get worried about their relationship was an understatement. Being rejected countless times was making him think that Taehyung was starting to get sick of him.

Maybe he should stop being so clingy.


Exactly a week after at midnight someone knocked on Jungkook's door. It was late but Jungkook wasn't sleeping,he was laying on the couch looking at pictures of Taehyung that he had taken secretly. There were a lot,from derp faces to his most favorite one,Tae's sleeping figure. With that disheveled hair,relaxed and content expression, slightly parted lips and that white sheet covering his tall and slim body, the latter could pass for an angel. An ethereal angel sent from heaven to save Jungkook's soul.
Jungkook lazily got up and opened the door without checking who it was first. His breath stopped when he saw the person that was hunting his thoughts every second in the past week. Joy started to spread through every fiber of his body but it didn't last long. Seeing Taehyung's teary eyes he felt like someone had thrown a bucket of cold water at him,numbing his senses.
"Tae."  He uttered softly.
The older boy jumped onto Jungkook,hugging him with all of his strength and kissed him desperately. The kiss was salty from Taehyung's tears but Jungkook didn't stop,he craved to touch the other,he needed it like he needs the air to breathe.
Jungkook's arms found their way around Taehyung's waist pulling him closer,making their lowest body part grind together. Tae moaned into the kiss,the friction was incredible. To have more of it,he brought one of his legs up and wrapped it around Jungkook's. The younger's hands moved down from Taehyung's waist to his perfect round bottom,he teased that sensitive flesh drawing more sinful sounds from his boyfriend.
In the meantime Jungkook was maneuvering their bodies though that so familiar place,urging to get into his bedroom.
It didn't take long. Reaching his destination Jungkook slammed the door shut using his foot and started to take off their clothes. The two pulled away from that heated kiss to remove their shirts. When there were no more obstacles between them,Jungkook's mouth attacked Taehyung's neck leaving a trail of red marks and saliva on his way.
They didn't really spoke much,their mouths were too busy to taste each other like hungry kids that finally got to eat their favorite snack after months of yearning.
The younger boy gently pushed his boyfriend on the bed and crawled on top of him after. He looked down at Taehyung with such adoring eyes.
"I missed you." He murmured caressing Tae's left cheek. The latter leaned into the touch closing his eyes,a light whimper escaped his lips.
"Please." Tae begged.
And Jungkook couldn't resist anymore,he locked their lips again,hands exploring every inch of Taehyung's body. One of his hands found Tae's one and their fingers automatically entwined together.
They were matching perfectly.
The younger was about to get up and retrieve the condoms and the bottle of lube when Taehyung stopped him.
"Don't go." He pleaded. "I want to feel you,Kookie. I want us to be one.
"A..are you sure?"
Taehyung nodded. "Please."
Jungkook gave in,because who could resist an offer like that?
"God, I love you so much Tae." He kissed the latter again pouring all of his feelings into it.
"I'm going to enter you now." Jungkook whispered into his ear. He positioned himself between Taehyung's legs making the latter wrap them around his waist to give him more access. With a quick movement he entered all the way then stopped to let his lover adjust to the intrusion.
"AHH!" Taehyung cried out in pain,tears sliding down on his cheeks. He bit down on his lip to try and muffle the sounds.
"I'm sorry."  Jungkook kissed his tears away,left a quick kiss on his lips then moved to play with his nipples. He kissed,licked and sucked on the pink nubs to distract him from the pain.
"M..move." Come the muffled beg of Taehyung.
Jungkook obeyed. He started to move slowly aiming for that special spot that would turn Taehyung's pain into pleasure. It didn't take him long to find it,after all he had memorized every part of his lover's body.
The warmness and tightness of Taehyung's hole around his member was driving him crazy and hearing Taehyung's moans was music to his ears.
His peace got faster resulting in more louder moans and cries from Taehyung.

Their orgasm hit them at the same time and they come screaming each other's name.
Jungkook collapsed over Taehyung but he was careful to not crash him. He supported his weight with his arms,panting heavily.
"You are so beautiful." Jungkook breathed out then kissed the half asleep Taehyung on the tip of his nose,right on that cute little mole.
After that the younger got up from bed in search of something to clean themselves. He tidied himself in the bathroom then come out with a clean towel for Taehyung. He ended up cleaning the latter because the older was already fast asleep.
Finished Jungkook got back on the bed and cuddled with Tae.
Jungkook had a beautiful dream that night.

But beautiful things don't last much.
When he woke up the next morning there was something missing,the usual warmness glued to his body wasn't there. Jungkook opened his eyes to see that his boyfriend was nowhere to be seen, the spot he had previously occupied on the bed was cold.
The happiness he felt after the events of last night crumbled.
"Maybe he is in the kitchen?" Hope lit up inside his chest but got completely crushed when he got there and found no one.

Jungkook passed the rest of the day mopping on the couch.
When the doorbell rang he was fast to get up and run to the door at the speed of light. He was excited,thinking that maybe it was Taehyung. But no,it was one of his friends,Yoongi.
"What do you want?" He sighed dejectedly.
"Hello to you too." Yoongi snorted.
"Sorry. I was waiting for someone else."
"Taehyung?"
"Yeah."
"Actually I'm here to tell you something related to your boyfriend."
"What happened? Is he alright?"
"He is more then fine but I'm sure you won't like it."
"What is it? Tell me." Jungkook urged,worried for Taehyung.
"You know the new cafe that opened some weeks ago? The one close by the studio I work at?" Jungkook nodded. "Today when I passed in front of it I saw Taehyung hugging another guy."
"What? Are you sure." The younger's eyes widened.
"Yeah."
"Maybe they are just friends."
"I don't know,talk with him yourself. But the hug was pretty long."
"I..I..I'll do it,talk with him." Jungkook shuttered,his heart was filed with doubts. 'He doesn't want you anymore.' His conscience taunted him. 'It's not true. He told me he loves me.' Jungkook cried back,but the voice just laughed. 'It was just a lie.' Jungkook shook his head to get ride of those thoughts. 'No,Tae loves me.'
"I'm sorry I was the one telling you this." Yoongi apologized,patting Jungkook's shoulder.
"It's ok,hyung. Thanks."
"See you around kiddo." The older waved goodbye and left.
Jungkook closed the door and immediately leaned onto it.
He suddenly felt like the world was closing down on him.
His back slid on the door until he met the ground then he pulled his knees to his chest.
'Was it true? Could he believe that? He trusted Taehyung but he felt the need to know the truth,to see everything with his own eyes.


The next day got by quickly,he called Tae but found the voicemail again.
Jungkook ruffled his hair in frustration,there was something going on with Taehyung lately and he needed to find out.
Jungkook just wanted to see Taehyung.

Making his way toward that cafe that Yoongi had mentioned, Jungkook started to think that maybe this was wrong,that he should just wait home for Taehyung. But when he came out with the conclusion to turn back to his apartment he was already in front of that said place.
No turning back now.
He took a step ahead and abruptly stopped on his track. The scene playing in front of his eyes made him freeze. His heart dropped into the deepest pit of his stomach and his blood run cold. This wasn't happening! No. This wasn't real. But it wasn't a nightmare ever,it was the reality.
He could recognize that person anywhere even though he was seeing only his back. There was no mistaking it that was Taehyung,the person he was logging for,in the arms of an unknown man and that man was kissing him.
Jungkook stood there like a statue looking at them until Taehyung turned back and noticed him.
Taehyung's eyes widened but shortly after his surprised expression morphed into a giant smile with eyes forming crescents and teeth showing.
Jungkook's heart fluttered at that sight,just for a second until his blood started to boil and anger took over his body.
"Kookie!" Taehyung left the man's side and headed towards his boyfriend. "I was about to go to your place."
"Don't call me that. Don't even think of going back to my house." Jungkook's tone was cold,harsh.
"What?" Taehyung stopped in front of Jungkook,he looked hurt and confused.
"Go get fucked by him and never show your pathetic existence in front of my face."
"Wait. Kookie what are you saying?"
"I said to not call me that." Jungkook shouted. "We are breaking up." And then he turned around and ran.
Taehyung was too shocked to say something but when he saw Jungkook running he ran after him.
"Kookie!" But the younger was too fast,Taehyung thought didn't give up. He continued running even though he couldn't see Jungkook anymore.
In that moment his phone started ringing and he answered it. Next thing he knows he had stopped running and his phone was on the ground,broken.
"No. This can't be." His cheeks were stained with tears and he broke into another run, but this time it was aimless. He ran and ran,risking to be hit by cars many times,until he dumped into someone and fell.
Taehyung looked up to see a frightening tall man. It was then that he realized that it was already dark outside.
The man smirked down at him then pulled the scared boy into the closest alleyway,pushing him on the ground in the middle of others 2 men.
"What are you doing here alone,lost puppy?" The man that had dragged him there asked. Taehyung found himself unable to answer.
"Answer when you are asked a question." One of the others men kicked his stomach making him fall and cry in pain. They continue to hit him until he didn't feel his body anymore.
"Such a waste for a pretty boy like you." The man from before said lifting him up  by pulling his hair then stabbed him. "Take everything he has and lets go." The man ordered. The others two obeyed. They took all his money and the little red box hidden in his pocket.
"Please...not...that." Taehyung weakly said.
The man looked at the box then down at him and then threw it near Taehyung's face before going out of there. With all of his left energy Taehyung took the box in his hand.
"I'm sorry Kookie." The last words he managed to say before everything turned black.


Jungkook had ended up inside a random club,drinking his misery away. He couldn't even remember how many glasses of alcohol he had drained. Four? Ten? Maybe fifteen?
It didn't really matter,he still couldn't forget Taehyung.
"Hey,Jungkookie. What are you doing here?" Someone asked the drunk boy. He turned around to see the unfocused faces of his friends,Jimin and Hoseok.
"Eww,you smell a lot. Are you still sane?" Jimin covered his nose,he hated the smell of alcohol.
"I'm fine." Jungkook grunted.
"Why are you here? Weren't you supposed to be home celebrating with Taehyung?" Hoseok questioned,eyebrows furrowed.
"Celebrate what? Our break up?" He laughed.
"What? What break up?" Jimin panicked.
"I broke up with him,he was cheating on me. I saw him with my own eyes with another man in front of a cafe."
"The fuck Jungkook,Taehyung works there. He is doing it for you." The shorter boy said,voice laced with anger.
"Doing what?"
"He needed money."
"Money? Don't make me laugh,if he needed them he could have just asked. I was wiling to give him everything."
"Idiot." Jimin slapped him. "It was supposed to be a surprise. You remember that today was your anniversary right? He wanted to propose to you, you fucker." That was like a punch to Jungkook's gut.
"What? But he didn't answered my phone calls."
"Because he was at the hospital taking care of his sick grandfather. The old man had been in a coma for a week." Hoseok explained.
"But..but they were kissing."
"Tae would never do that. You should have seen how excited he was for tonight but you go and fuck it up like the complete idiot you are. I hope for your good that he is alright."
"I...I need to talk to him." Jungkook shuttered trying to take out his phone.
"You should."
He called but got the voicemail again.
"I can't reach him."
"Let me try." Jimin tried too but the result was the same. "Fuck."


Somewhere far away from there paramedics were rushing into the hospital carrying an unconscious boy.
"That's an emergency. We have a stab wound,multiple bruises and probably an internal hemorrhage. He needs immediate surgery."
The nurses were fast to bring him into the operating room,the doctor was already there ready for the intervention.
Removing the knife proved to be difficult,while moving it just a little Taehyung's blood pressure dropped.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Beep. Beeeeep.

His heart beat was getting slower.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

"Hurry,he is having a cardiac arrest." The doctor shouted.



Taehyung was alone into a huge corridor,everything was white apart from the door situated at the end of it.
The door was black and red like someone's favorite colors.
He started walking towards it,attracted by a mysterious force. He opened the door to what looked like to be a theater. There was a big screen and it was playing something.
Taehyung glanced at it and saw himself. He was younger,dressed in a high school uniform.
The image changed,showing an handsome black haired boy.
'Jungkook.'
Those pictures were memories. His memories.
The images continued to change showing different people,memorable moments of his life like his first kiss with Jungkook,that day when Jungkook had asked him to be his boyfriend,their first time and every other kiss and touch.

"Would you like to be mine?"

"Tae I love you."

"Let's stay together forever."

"Promise."


Forever.


"Damn,we are loosing him." The doctor shouted. He sent another wave of electricity through Taehyung's body.



Beep.

'Together forever.'

Beep. Beep.

'Jungkook.'

Beep. Beep. Beep.