Savannah // Michael Clifford

2.7 - Band Meeting

Savannah

Home; a place that I hadn't been at in a while. I missed being here. The nice size place was one of my favorite places to be. The setup of the estate was that I was able to keep a lot of my privacy and still be able to be in town. The two story white and yellow house was blocked by street view, a couple trees out front and in the back. The neighbors were nice, meeting them or seeing them out occasionally when I was home; which really wasn't that often anymore.

The inside of the house was pretty modern, being completely furnished when I bought it after coming home from my first little tour. The scheme of the house was more on the black side than the white but I didn't mind.

It was filled with all of my personaL things; and while I was in the hospital, Jaime and Annie had called and asked if they could get Mason's stuff from the house, and since I didn't want any of his stuff being in my house or to deal with it, I told them that it was okay. I wasn't too sure on how they felt about what had happened or if their opinion on me had changed any at all.

Michael had told me not to even worry about it. Saying that I did not need to put the added stress so I should only think of my health at the moment but that was hard with everything going on at the moment. Breanna said one night while we discussed where I was going next in my career move, because the press was having a field day with what they thought had happened or what was being told around the media.

Many television shows were interested in wanting me to appear on them so I could tell my story. That's why I had come home, I was doing what Michael suggested and worrying about my health now. The injuries on my outside were healing but the ones on the inside were being ripped open. Metaphorically speaking.

I knew I was safe, Mason being out of the picture completely now let me know that but I still woke up mostly every night with nightmares about him coming to get me. That's why I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I clung to Michael a lot more while I was in the hospital, not even wanting him to leave the room. I'm not sure how I'm going to do alone in my own house without him to be a safety net.

Sadly for me, the tour had to continue on without me. Another opening act, Hey Violet, had been filling in for me whenever I had missed shows and now they were on full time. All of them were nice and so sweet. I had met them early on in the tour and whenever I had time and they were around we hung out together. But as they toured the rest of the United States in my position, Michael was gone touring too.

He told me that whenever they got the time off he would come and spend it with me but with touring America then going to Australia and then fitting in the album prep and press release for it, I just knew it would be a long while before I saw him again.

Nicole had wanted to stay with me but she needed a job to support herself so she was offered a makeup job with Hey Violet; agreeing on taking it. Breanna and Taylor both had their own lives and even though Breanna is my manager and sometime personal assistant she still needed to go to her own house and couldn't babysit me. So that left me and Jack alone.

"Well Jack, I guess we better go unpack."

The first few nights at home were not good; barely getting two hours of sleep each night. I would fall asleep late, have a nightmare, wake up then stay up for the rest of the day. I knew it wasn't healthy to be this afraid but I was and no matter what, I couldn't help it.

Michael had been the best boyfriend with sending me messages and videos on snapchat and through text and those usually got me through the day but when I wasn't talking with Michael, I was in my basement turned music studio, writing different song lyrics. Along with 'Perfect.' And the duet with Ben 'Paint Me Black' I had wrote a lot of the album with Moira. I needed a few more songs before it would be considered a finished album list.

I've got one that I've been writing since I was in college. I didn't really know how to write songs then so at first it was a little story that I've recently started reworking into song lyrics. This one was a lot more personal, diving deep into my life; it being named 'Because of You.'

Michael

I had called for a quick band meeting before our show in Miami. Since everything that has happened, I have been having a thought and I wanted to see if we could add another song and a cover to our album. I don't think the guys would mind since I have the song already wrote and I know how I want it to sound but it's talking to our music production team about extending the album to put the two song on would be another story.

Luke and Calum sat on the couch in our dressing room with their phones out, scrolling through them as Ashton was munching away on some food from the snack table placed against the far wall.

"So what's so important you decided to do a spur of the moment band meeting?" Calum asked, locking his phone and dropping it in his lap; earning the attention of the others.

"I've been doing some thinking-" I stopped, unsure of how to continue on with my tangent.

"Okay? Come on, Mikey. You can tell us anything." Ashton said, seeing my trouble at continuing. With a long inhale and exhale, I continued.

"With everything that has happened with Savannah, I was wondering if you guys would be willing to do a cover of 'The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' song Face Down. It came up on my playlist and the lyrics just struck me and I wanted to do something for Savannah. I figured if everyone was okay we could put it on the album or release it by itself."

I was going to continue on my explanation, or rambling, but was told to take a breath.

"We think it's a great idea, Mikey. We'd love to do this for you."

"Good because I also have a song that I was wondering if we could add to the album too." I smiled sheepishly as they all stared at me with some grins.

Surprise! 

So I got a laptop and had wrote this lovely stuff for you  it's not much but I wasn't planning on writing at all until i got home so yeah. I hope you enjoy it and y'all will find out the song mikey "wrote" for Savannah in an upcoming chapter. Maybe even the next one. Who knows. Anywho hope you liked. :)

-Stay Beautiful

Courtney

*Edited on 7/24/21*