Stupid Games

12

Dette's pov. *lunch time...oh no*

I have a weird feeling on the pit of my stomach like some kind of nervousness or something...i cant explain it.

Me and Van were heading to the lunch room and met up with the girls on the far table on the left side.

"Hey guys" i greeted them and sat down. I've been battling with myself if i should get food or no. Im pretty much still full from my breakfast this morning but they had Chicken Alfredo....but im still full so i guess nah.

I got a chorus of hey from the Jayley, Liah and Ashley. Andie just looked at me guilty. What did she do?

"Hey Ands? Is everything all right?" I asked her worriedly and she just nodded.

"Yeah, everything's fine" she just spoke hesitantly. Whats wrong with her? I decided not to push her in to it though because i know sooner or later she'll tell me.... thats how she works things through.

A moment of silence past our group and i saw Andie and somehow she looks like shes gonna burst.

"EVERYTHING IS NOT FINE" she spoke loudly and since the cafeteria is loud we only got to hear her.

"Whats wrong Ands?" Liah questioned her still chewing but slowly.

"I found out something and i know Dette, youre not gonna like it" she said staring at me with concern showing on her face. Im scared now. But i decided to be calm

"What is it Ands? Is there something wrong between us?" I questioned her. Im quite afraid of her answer because i dont wanna fight with my friends. She shook her head instantly and brought out her hands waving it in front of me.

"The 3 of us, you know who, were walking down the hallways of my locker, when i heard some shouting in the janitor's closet-

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"-you already made progress"

"Yes i made a progress in my feelings, its not about this stupid game anymore.I fell dude. I fell for Dette really hard and i cant just continue this game knowing ill hurt her even more, this isnt suppose to happen, FUCK! I shouldn't have agreed in the first place, im sorry Aiden but i guess our plan failed. Im sorry."

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By the time she finished her story, im already sure i can hear my heart breaking now. At least now its confirmed. Whats worst is i knew, i fucking knew. Im such a fool. I cant believe I fell for an asshole.

Before any words were said between us, I found myself standing up and walking to his table.

Im so angry right now you could feel it radiating through me. I tapped his shoulder. He looked up and smiled. He stood up about to hug me but i pushed him back. Im gonna do this.

"woah whats wrong babe?" He questioned going in for a hug but im so done.

"Is it true?!" I spat at him. Im trying so hard to hold up my tears right now. I don't wanna cry... not in front if this asshole anyway.

"Whats true?" He asked me tensed. Now he's playing dumb.

"Your game! Now im gonna ask you one more time Edward, is it true or not?" i said raising my voice now.

Aiden decided to step up.
"He called off the game Dette, there's no more game" he said with a grim face. I flipped him the finger.

" Edward, im asking you. Is it true? Answer me right now!" I snapped at him. Tears are now flowing at my eyes and i wiped them of with the sleeved of my shirt. He just looked lost.

"De-e-tte I-I Uh" he stuttered still staring at me. Tears still flowing at my face. I wiped them off harshly. Im just so mad right now i couldn't care. I saw the girls coming now but i hold my hand out to stop them.

"Tha-a-anks for the truth" i whispered weakly. I glanced at him and saw tears pooling out of his eyes. Its too late. I stormed out if the cafeteria and runned up to the side if the building.

I leaned back and sobbed. I eventually cant handle it anymore so i sat while still sobbing.

Is it wrong? Is it wrong for me to hope that he feels the same? Even in the slightest amount. I cant believe it. I really fell hard. Im so stupid. I just sobbed with my hands covering ny face. I felt someone's presence around me. I glanced at it and i didnt like what I saw.

I stood up and walked away but i felt his hands snaking in my shoulders and he's pressing his face against it.

"please Dette, just please listen to me" he sobbed in my shoulder and i closed my eyes. Oh God, i wanted to so badly. I weakly thrashed around his hold.

" l-let go of me p-please j-just let go of me" i sobbed harder and pushed him away but he wont budge.

"No! I wont let go. Please just listen Dette. I-I love you" i sobbed even harder at those words. Ive been wanting to hear that come from him.

"Please just let go Edward. Dont make this even harder for us than it is already"i cried and pushed him away. I eventually did and i started walking away. I felt an arm wrapped around my waist and i saw him kneeling, sobbing through it.

"Im so sorry Dette, I love you. Please" he continues to sob but i stayed grounded. Im so hurt, i cant just forgive him like that.

"Its too late Edward. Please let go already! Dont you know how badly i want us to happen? God! Ive had my suspicions about it but you know what? I didnt care! I ignored the stupid signs thats telling me its fake! Why?! Because i fell for you. I cant believe i let myself fall. Worst case scenario? I let myself fall eventhough i know because i was willing to change you! I was hoping it could be real. Now for hoping, i-im b-broken" I screamed again and fought harder. But he didnt released me. He got up and hugged me from behind.

"Give me another chance Dette. Please, i can fix this, i can fix us" he sobbed and I turned around. My face blank but it was tear stained. Tears were still flowing in my face as i answer him.

"You cant fix whats already broken Edward. I hope youre happy now" and with that i took the chance to run off.

I run in the streets hoping he wouldn't catch me. I looked back and saw him sitting on the ground sobbing hardly. His body was shaking from how hard he cries.

I wanted so badly to run up to him and hug him and tell him i love him too but i cant. Its too much.

I got home and went in my room. I didn't even care that i skipped classes because I knew the girls are gonna make up some excuses for me.

I buried my face in my pillow and sobbed hard. I dont think i ever cried this much in my life. I heard my phone ringing but i ignored it, I know the girls are calling but i just need time.

I never thought i was right. I cant believe he just played me off. I loved him. I really do. But i guess this is my fault too.

I let myself fall.