Bad Habbits

Lifes a secret but its hard to keep. Life can be hard or sometimes abnormal. It all matters how you go.



My names Ryan im 19. I know my names a boy name but my moms into the whole unisex name thing. I have a pretty decent school and two best friends. One of best friends is Cheli i have known her since the second grade. Shes like a sister to me she has been through thick and thin with me. I have also been through thick and thin with her because she use to self harm but me and her other friend help her get through it.

The other best friend is Shannon i knew her since the third grade shes the average girl i should say,really sweet to. She has been there for me to but she moved and we haven't communicated that much.


Its pop quiz tuesday in Mr.felix's class the worst time of the week. He gives you the problems that you have trouble with and dosnt let you study. Its stupid and I am not good at math so it brings my grade low. The bell rings finally its lunch. Hopefully Mr.felix doesn't make us late. "All right class remember to get extra credit you can always stay after class. Class dismissed".

"Hey Ryan was Mr.Felix annoying as usually?"Cheli says with a chuckle. "As usual chelster". I have always called her that it was just a nickname i gave her because i always somehow come up with a nickname for people. "How did you do on the pop quiz" i didnt want to tell her cuz i knew shed go on this whole rant of how Mr.Felix is. I believe it but she goes on and on. "I made batter than last time" she looked at me with a sarcastic exspession "what?" "Nothing".

Im walking home with cheli and she suddenly squels "eeeekkk". "WHAT?" "You see that guy over there?!?" I look over to a blonde,kinda tattoo covered guy whos is tall and slim with these perfect crystal blue eyes. "ISNT HE SO CUTE EEEEEE YOU SHOULD GO TALK TO HIM" "no" i say disgusted. I wasn't into the whole punk kinda guy but cheli has been trying to hook me up with a boy since me ex cheated on me. I was devastated. Suddenly the blondie walks over. "Hey i herd you friend scream is everything ok?" He sounded irish so i guess he wasnt around here. "Yeah shes fine. Are you new here?" He started biting his lip ring which was kinda attractive "Actually i yeah i just moved here from ireland." "OMG I LOVE IRELAND!" My friend screams high pitched "um dose your friend have voice probs cuz i think she just blew my ear drum" "no she just gets high pitched sometimes." He looks at us both weirdly. "So what school do you go to" im getting nervous i dont know why because i dont really like him but he seems cool. "I go to Greenville High School " "we do to" how come i didnt see him though? "Cool then ill see you tomorrow?" I dont know if i should say yes because hes probably a bad influence. "Sure she wil!" Cheli burst out instantly i look at her with a mad face "alright cool bye" "bye!" I look at cheli likes shes crazy and im trying so hard not to strangle her. "What i was just helping" "well your helping is not working" "well jeez. See you tomorrow bye" "bye and hey dont do stuff like that without letting me know" "kay bye"

I wake up to a blaring tv. I wonder why. My mom is usually still in the shower. I walk out to see Cheli's picture on the news with the headline "YOUNG TEENAGER KILLED IN A TERRIBLE MURDER!" My heart sinks to my feet knowing that she has always been there for me and just turns up dead? Why would anyone do this to a inasint girl. "Hunny" my mom says in a sad shaky voice "cheli was found dead yesterday in her front yard. They dont know who did it but they are trying to find evidence." I feel cold. Like my whole life just fell apart. I cling to my mother trying hard not to let out the tears building up. Its horrible to imagine a person killing someone so inasint.

I get to school and i see Blondie. "Hey um i herd about your friend im sorry" i try not to cry. "Yeah its ok at least shes in a better place." He looks at me like i had a meaning it was weird like he had something planned. "Yeah so whats your name im Niall." Niall. Weird name but i guess it works "im Ryan" he gives me the same look and then puts his hand on my back like hes known me for a while know. "So Ryan how old are you?" "19 and you?" He swallows his spit with a lound gulp like he had something to hide. The feeling with him gave me butterfly's but i dont know why. "Im 19 as well soon gonna be 20." I feel weird around him. The bell rings thank god "hey i gotta get to class bye." He grabs my arm tight "hey why dont you skip come out with my friends?" I new he was one of those guys. I know i cant because my mom would kill me and if i dont make the right grades i wont be able to go to college. "What? No i cant sorry." He grabs my arm again "hey come on just one time!" I slap his hand off and try to get away as fast as i can "YOU WILL REGRET THAT!"


Class today was a bit hard today. I can never do fractions right for one reason. Walking home alone its weird without shelly. I miss her so much. Her dirty minded, pikachu, random, funny self. "HEY HAYLEY" i hear someone shout. Its Niall. I dont know wether to run or to stay. "Hey Hayley" i dont know what to say. "Hey Niall..." He looks at me confused "whats wrong?" He asks me. I dont know wether to say fine or bad. Or good or not great. "It was ok i guess. So what did you do with your friends?" Why did i ask that!"Well we went to the skating ring. Then went to Andy's for some cheese fries. Then got some booze." I could smell it from his breath that he has been drinking. He takes out a cigarette and lights it. "So how was your day?" He says while puffing out smoke witch was slightly attractive. "Umm well the usually of course. Geometry, language arts you know." He takes another puff. "Well why didnt you come with us?" I suddenly get angry. "Because Niall i am responsible and i want to get somewhere in my life." He looks at me disturbed. "Feisty one aren't you?" He says as he raises an eyebrow. I wanna slap him at this point. "Its cute" know he deserves a kick in balls for saying that. "I gotta go Niall i dont have time for you" i walk away fast i look back and hes just standing there confused like a statue. Well its not my problem.


Chapter 2
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I haven't seen blondie in a couple of days? Probably still been skipping school. I failed this weeks pop quiz. Great. Its been two weeks since Cheli's death they still haven't found evidence of who or "what" killed her. Its lonely. Ive been depressed. I haven't gone anywhere but my house in school.


Monday. The best time of the week. My locker wont open even when i hit the lock as hard as i can with my math text book. "Here let me help" says and irish voice. Niall. Just grate. "Thanks." He hits the locker with his fist one good time then hits the lock with his binder. It opens. "How did you do that?" He stares at my locker. "Practice. I had this locker before." Wow. The bell rings. "Hey gotta get to class thanks." He follows me. "Hey let me walk you."No i think im good." Why does he keep following me? Hes been following me almost everywhere. At least when he's here. "Well my class is also this way so basically im gonna be following you." Ugh. "Ok fine." We get to the classroom i guess he thinks walking you somewhere means no talking just walking in front of someone guiding them to a place they already know where it is. We get to the class. Finally. "Hey i go to this class to!" Just fantabulous .

He sits three seats in front of me. At least its some space. Mrs. Pearl is annoying as usual. "All right kids today we are going to be working with partners. Pick one" I look around to see if anyone i would like to work with. I see Niall coming in the corner in my eye. I hurry up to my best friend Carolin. "Hey Carolin wanna work together?" "Sure!" Few. Carolin is one of my best friends shes awesome. She knows how to have fun. I look and see Niall was scowling at me and he mouths "i know you saw me!" I get kinda scared cuz he looks mean. "Ok class today we are gonna be working on our vocab words with a word search any volunteers to pass out the paper?" Niall raises his hand. "Ok Niall havnt seen you do something like this in a while. Im scared cause i know hes mad. He stops at my table and stares at me "Dont ever do that again." And he walks off.

Why would he make such a big deal over that? Maybe i should stop thinking about it. Walking home alone makes me think alot. Sometimes its annoying i dont know why but sometimes i dont want to think i just want to be thoughtless. "Ryan! Ryan hey" i turn around and its niall. Now i just wanna be dead. I speed up and he ends up running i run faster but he ends up catching up to me. He grabs my arm kinda tight and turns me around. "Whats your problem? You've been avoiding me lately!" Not sure what to say "look i just have alot on my mind from cheli's death and i just wanna find a new girl friend ok" i lie. He looks at me with this confused exspression. I want to know what hes going to say but then i dont. "Well that dosnt mean you have to run away from me?!" I want to leave but im scared he wont let me. "Look Ryan i want to to know if your gonna skip classes with me tomorrow." I dont know what to say i mean tomorrows friday we wont have that much work i guess i can miss one day. "Sure why not" and of course he gives me a cocky grin that looks like the cheshire cat from alice in wonderland.


I have these weird jitters. I mean this is the first time i have done something like this. Im wearing a shirt that says "hug life" with a bear wearing raybans holding his arms open and black skinny jeans with my black and white convers. Its a pretty sick outfit i guess . I hope i dont stick out. I asked Caralynn and Shakira to get the work for me but secretly. They are great friends. Im serprised they are still friends with me after i told them this. "Hey RyRy" i cringe at the nickname its my dads. "I prefer not to be called that hot shot." He looks a pt me with i sneaky smile. I feel badass. "You look colorful today?" I come up with a good come back "yeah so they can see me when you attempt to rape me." He looks aggravated his friends are laughing. I smile with delight. "Just come on." We walk out the school and to a gray Toyota truck. Must be his. He opens the door for me. "Well Mr. Niall i see you finally took the change to be a gentleman." He smiles. "Well miss goody two shoes dont get use to it." I smile smartly. "Ill try blonde." He starts the trunk while he rolls down the window "aye chap we going were we went last friday?" His friend gives a cool nod. Im sweating like a hooker in church. "Alright goody lets get goin." He cranks the radio its Lana Del Rey and her song "Lucky Ones" i instantly think of my friend Cheli. Oh how i miss her. She probably would of made this less un comfortable. "You like this song?" I guess he caught me singing ugh. "Yeah it has a good vibe to it you know?" He looks at me weird " how do you know about vibe?" "Niall there is alot to me you just dont know." He turns it up louder but changes the channel "Dude what the hell?" He laughes "my truck my music." He turns it to the weird rap. Great. He starts bobbing his head. I change the station back "your to white for that music niall" "DUDE THAT DOSNT GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO CHANGE THE STATION!" Im actually quite scared at the moment. "Alright chill!" We sit in silence as he lights a cigarette. Then he finally speaks "look Ryan im sorry." I honestly dont know what im feeling "its alright its just havnt been yelled at like that since my dad left." He looks at me surprised "im so sorry i i i know how you feel this truck was a gift from my dad before he died in war. My heart shatters like he just took and 44 magnum to my chest. "Im so sorry." I whisper it looks as if hes gonna cry.

We rode the rest of the way in silence. We pull up at a neon bowling alley. Sick. "I didnt know we had one!" I say. I think my voice cracked. A guy with curly hair comes out "hey niall i think we should head to the back before the manager spots us." His voice is deep and raspy and he is british. Three other guys come out of the car only two have girls with them. "Who are they" niall lights one. "They are my friends. The one with the curls is Harry. The one with the short hair and the birth mark on his neck is Liam. The one with the blonde girl is Zayn and the blonde is Perrie. Last but not least is Louis and his girlfriend Eleanor." Lovely bunch Harry and Louis have very nice jawlines. "Eleanor seems nice and Perrie." He scoffs "Eleanor and can be iffy at times specially with shopping!" Perrie walks over " Hi im Perrie! Zayn said your one of Nialls friends?" Shes sweet. I like her i think we might get along and shes british as well. I think Niall may be the only irish. "Yeah were sort of friends. Nice to meet you im Ryan." She smiles " I like your name!" Finally "thanks!"
Zayn, i think, walks over. "Alright loves we have to get inside before we get kicked out. And Ryan since your new yo-"
"Alright Zayn i can take it from here." Niall interrupts. I look at Niall disgusted "Niall calm down Zayn was just helping me out." Wow why so angry? "I know but he has his girlfriend to take care of."