hospital beds// joshler fanfiction

chapter three: pov tyler

it was morning time and i was still in intake. the nurses were working at the desk. there were two younger girls in there. one 16 year old and one 18 year old. the 16 kept eyeballing me i think she liked me.
16: heyyyy whats your name?
t: tyler. joseph.
sarah: my name is sarah! uhh its nice to meet you i mean not here but its nice to be talking to someone....as cute as you.
she smiled then bit her lip and winked.
t: uh im gay by the way.
sarah: well it was nice talking to you..........bye!
18: sorry shes a bit weird. tyler right?
tyler: uh yeah. whats your name?
grace: im grace but im not as graceful as my name. as you can see i honestly dont give a flipping fuck!
tanner: grace language!
i look on her arms and legs to see bruises, cuts and burns and everything else you could imagine. i saw she had a tattoo on her wrist it was a semi colon ;
i heard that meant like dont end your life its worth it to keep going.
grace: whatever tanner!
t: i uh like your tattoo.
grace: thanks i like your face.
she smiled at me. i smiled back then we both laughed.
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me and grace had fun all day we colored, watched tv, ate food. i sound like im five but i promise it was so fun.
then stuff happened...
tanner: tyler, josh is on the phone he wants to talk.
i got flash backs of everything. would if he hates me. what if he doesnt love me. i have to stay strong. i started having a panic attack.
t: I CANT TALK TO HIM NOT HERE. HE CANT SEE ME LIKE THIS PLEASE NO.
i felt like i was being suffocated but then grace came and hugged me. she knew the rules were no touching but she calmed me really quick. we hugged for what felt like forever. her hair smelled like roses and her smile felt like the sun it was so bright. the nurses knew that being with grace helped so they allow us to touch now. i even got to spoon her last night because she got sad. she gets bad nightmares i didnt know. so i held her close and tight. i held her hand and she squeezed it.
grace: thanks tyler... i love you
t: i love you too.
wait what? did i just say that? and did i like it?...