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Chapter Four

Chapter song: Let's Be Honest by Mayday Parade                                                                                            Alright, before this starts, hOly crap! 429 reads??! 24 votes??! You people are awesome! I hope you enjoy this chapter, The picture is of Chris Beck's sister Have a good day,

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--Charlie--

They say that once you have a kid, your world changes. That nothing will ever be the same. In some aspects-it changes everything, your sleep schedule, buying food, remembering that there is another human that you have to take care of. In other aspects it doesn't change at all, you still have to go to work, eat, drink, sleep and everything else like a normal, functioning human being. A child just adds the extra weight on top of everything, the worries,  and new priorities in your life. Everyone told me that I could give him away, or to get rid of it. "It'll make your life easier!" they tried to convince me. Now I'm not against anyone getting rid of their pregnancy-that is the woman's choice-it just wasn't for me. When I had Daniel, almost all of my "friends" left me;saying that I was officially an adult. Like I wasn't one before. But the thing is, nobody grows up and becomes an adult. We just learn to act that way. I think having Daniel in my life proved to me who my true friends are, he is probably the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Friday finally came and Daniel, Madison, Jackson and their daughter were almost here. Most people assumed that Maddi and I would hate each other because she "stole my man" or some other crap. Jackson was never my man. He was and always will be my best friend, he's like another brother basically. There was never anything romantic between us, and there will never be anything. But I was nervous as hell. I never told anyone about Daniel except for Mark and Chris-it was starting to freak me out. What if this was a bad idea? What if everyone hates me after this? What if I die and leave Dannie alone? Oh God, that'll kill Mark too! My hands tangled themselves in my hair as my breaths became short and fast paced.

"Hey Charlie," Mark said, walking into my hotel room, "Da-Oh sh*t!" He saw the state that I was in. He went immediately to my kitchen and grabbed the tea remedy for whenever this happens. I think its passion fruit. I don't know what is in this stuff but it helps a lot. Its funny right? Someone with anxiety problems is going to go into space. The only reason I passed the test is because I have medicine to take whenever an anxiety attack happens. Mark waved the cup in my face, and placed it into my hands. I took slows sips to calm my nerves.

"Jesus, Char," Mark sighed, "What was it this time?"

"A little bit of everything," I muttered, evasively. I don't want to bother him with my stupid thoughts.

"Oh, that reminds me," Mark smiled and walked towards the door, "Daniel's here!"  He opened the door to reveal Daniel standing there with Jackson and Madison- who was holding Janette in her arms.

"Mommy!" Dannie yelled and ran over to tackle me in a hug. I grunted in surprise as he almost knocked me over. We both started to laugh once he finally let me go. I looked over to Madison and Jackson talking to Mark. I walked over to them with Dannie on my heels.

"Can I hold her?" I asked Madison. She smiled and carefully handed me Janie. 

"We were wondering if you would be her godmother?" Jackson asked nervously. Why was he nervous? Does he really think that I'm going to refuse this? Or is he scared that I'm going to say yes?