I'll Never Let You Go

Never Say Never

Above picture of Paul's car

I always thought when I said I'll never go somewhere I meant it but I clearly don't. Apparently Paul's parents aren't home so we have the house to our selves. As he unlocks the door a wave of memories suddenly over comes me.

"You remember this place right." He rubs his feet on the rug and I do the same.

"Of course I do." I look around. This place hasn't changed a bit.

"Do you want to freshen up or something, because I need to use the bathroom real bad."

"TMI dude but no I'm okay thank you."

"okay I'll be back in a few." He winks at me.

I walk to the living room and sit down I feel so uncomfortable around Paul right now, it's like were dating again and it feels weird but nice in the same way. I remember what Stacey told me what if he tries to fuck me or something, when I was dating him never even touched me but he loses his virginity to Zara. I sit alone in the living room for like fifteen minutes and I start to feel scared I go up the stairs to look for him.

"Um Paul are we going to watch that movie or have plans changed." I call.

"Um why don't you come up here." He replies.

I open his door slowly and it's completely dark except for this little candlelight.

"Um Paul are you in here."

"Of course I am, just feel your way to my bed and follow my voice."

"Oh okay." I stumble towards the bed; I trip on something and fall on the bed. I land on something warm and soft with a shape of a human being.

"Hey I hoped you'd land there." Paul says but I can't see him. Is he trying to have sex with me oh my gosh Stacey was right but instead on the trip he wants to do it now.

"Paul I don't know about this."

"Well I know your ready you've had sex with Alex so you can have with me."

"But after him I swore not to have it again he was that bad."

"But Margo," he puts his fingers through my hair, "I love you."

I officially want to faint how can you just drop a bomb like that, but what am I saying I've waited fro those words to come out of his mouth for a very long time. So what if I'm going to have sex with my ex I won't die and he said eh loves me and he has proven it.

"I love you to Paul." I kiss his warm cheek.

"Perfect."

He gets up and removes my top and unhooks my bar, I take off my skirt and underwear. Paul is already nude he must have put in a lot of thought into this, I feel his warm body next to mine and I suddenly remember how good he makes me feel about myself. He rolls on top of me and I can feel his penisagainst my thigh.

"Youdon't know how long I've waited for this to happen Paul," Isigh, "you make me feel so good."

"I getthat a lot." He breathes on my neck.

He kissesmy check and I kiss his back I can feel him halfway inside me and Ilove it. As he pushes back and forth on by body I want him even more,so I turn him over and take control this is the first time I'veever done this properly and I love it.

"Dam itgirl I love it when they take control." Paul groans.

"I cantell." I touch is face and its hot and sweaty.

"I wantyou so bad."

"Me to."

I can feelmyself getting hotter and hotter by the second, this adrenalineinside of me is so new. Then I feel a big thrust inside and I comeback as well I groan so does Paul.

"How doyou feel?" Paul pants.

"Great,you really know how to treat a girl."

"Uh,ya."

"So whatdoes this mean?"

"What doyou think," he gets off the bed and starts putting on his clothes Ido the same, "Margo like I told you I love you."

"So weretogether again." I smile.

"Duh."He smiles back.

Ifeel so alive finally after all this time Paul and I are backtogether again I can't wait to tell Stacey.

"WellI'd better go home it's getting late and we have a big day aheadof us." I say opening the door.

"OhI almost forgot tomorrow were going to New York I still need to pack,but let me first drop you off at home."

"Okay."

Aswe pull into my driveway the cold hair pricks my sun warm face.

"So,see you tomorrow I'll call you." Paul calls from the car.

"Cool,well see you." I wave.

"Ya."He waves back. I watch him pull out and drive into the distance.

"I'mhome!" I shout.

"I'min the living room!" Shouts back Vanessa. I walk in and find her inher pyjamas, bunny slippers and a hot coca in her hand withmarshmallows floating on top. Next to her was Drake her boyfriend, hehad his arm around her and his other hand underneath the blanketthey're sharing, guessing from Vanessa's face he's playing withsomething down there.

"Hey!"Shouts Drake, as I but my bag down and fit my self next to Vanessa.

"Youwere out rather late, where were you?" Vanessa asks me.

"OhI met up with Paul." I lean over and steal some of Drakes Pringle'sand stuff them in my mouth.

"Whatyou were at Smith's house." Laughs Drake by stuffing popcorn in hismouth.

"Ya,we just hung out for the afternoon that's it." I say while watchingthe screen.

"Andnothing happened huh." Vanessa says suspiciously.

"Duh,what you think we had sex or something." I laugh hitting her arm.Vanessa turns to Drake.

"Umbabe I think it's late and my parents will be back any minute i'llsee you tomorrow okay."

"Surebabe," he pecks her, "Margo see you." He hugs me.

"I'llwalk you out." Vanessa gets up from the sofa. And I stay thereknowing what Vanessa is going to ask me. I hear faint murmurs at thedoor, then the slam of it. Vanessa walks in with her face warm, herand Drake must have kissed.

"Okaynow that Drakes gone you can really tell me what happened." Shesits down next to me.

"Nothinghappened." I lie.

"Nothing happened uh, then why did I get this text from Hilary." Shestuffs her phone in my hand. I stare at the message: OMGgirlfriend Allison just told me that Paul Smith has a new girlfriend!And guess what it's your sister Margo!

"Ohmy gosh!" I sigh and hit myself with a pillow. "Now everyoneknows ,I'm so not going to hear the end of this when I come back."

"So,what are you going to do." Vanessa snuggles up to me.

"Idon't know, we had sex and he told me he loves me and stuff, but nowI don't know what to say to him when I meet him tomorrow," I turnto face her, "Vanessa please do me a favour and keep quite abouteverything I've just told you, I would die if anyone at schoolexcept those who know to hear any thing about this. Tell your friendsto shut up about it to."

"You've got it."

"Thanks"I smile. "Okay I'm calling it a night."

"Metoo." We both walk up the stairs, I have no energy to shower so Igo straight to my pyjamas. I put my phone on charge and ignore allthe messages from Stacy, she must have found out. I flop on my bed,close my eyes and do nothing but sleep.