I woke up to someone shaking me. It was Matt. "Hey, your alarm went off." I looked over at my phone. I guess it did. I nodded and looked at Matt.
"I have to get up and record." He looked confused. "I'll explain some other time. Just rest." Matt nodded. I went to get up, but he pulled me back down.
"Five more minutes?" I sighed and nodded. Five minutes wouldn't hurt. I don't know why I did it, but I leaned down and kissed Matt's forehead. I expected him to get mad or something, but he just smiled and put a hand on my chest.
Did I like Matt? I couldn't. I'm his best friend. No more than that. I hope.
A few minutes later, I told Matt I needed to record. He nodded and got up. I sat up and stretched. I walked out of Matt's room, and towards the recording room, but I guess Matt was following me. Oh well.
I grabbed a chair and slid it away from the camera for Matt, so he could watch, and I sat in mine. I started the camera and pulled up the game. "Hello everybody! I'm NateWantsToBattle, and welcome back to (g/n)." I started playing the game and I couldn't stop laughing. I'd say something that Matt found funny and he couldn't stop laughing.
I did my outro and stopped the camera. Matt's face was red from laughing so hard. I just laughed at him. I went to edit the video, when Matt came over and sat on my lap. He wrapped his arms around my neck. I'm sure my face was completely red, because Matt just chuckled at me.
Matt leaned down and started nipping at my neck. I don't know why I did, but I enjoyed it. I didn't want to, but at the same time, I wanted more. I picked him up and pinned him against the wall. I crashed my lips onto his. Matt seemed to be enjoying it, because he moaned. I wanted to do more, but I stopped myself. I couldn't do it.
"I'm sorry, Matt. I can't do this."
"Wha-Why not?"
"We're friends. I can't do that to you." Matt looked upset. He ran upstairs to his room. I cursed under my breath and followed him. His door was locked. "Matt, open the door." I heard shuffling and the door unlocked. I opened the door. Matt was on his bed, crying. "Matt, what's wrong? Why are you upset?"
He shook his head. "I love you, Nate. I thought we were together when I woke up. I thought that because I fell in love with you again. You're cute, you're funny, you're kind... I want to be with you, even if I can't remember."
I just cried. I broke down. I didn't know how I felt about Matt. I didn't know what was happening. I didn't want to love him. I wasn't gay. I was straight. But I felt like I just wanted to hold him close ever chance I got.
"Matt... I..."
