'Slipping Away' A Dan Howell Fan Fiction

I look at the blade as it sinks into my wrist. The only thing that takes the pain away. The tears are slowly streaming down my face but I carry on. Knowing that eventually it will stop all the mental pain. Another cut. And another. And another. Beads of blood flood out of my skin and drip into the bathroom sink. Before I go in for another cut, I hear a faint knock on the bathroom door.

"Emily? Are you still in there?" I hear Dan call out softly. Dan. My best friend. Also known as the secret love of my life.

"Yes, why?" I croak out, hoping he doesn't come in. I slowly drag my cardigan sleeve over my wrist just in case he does.

"I'm just checking if your okay. Are you?"

"I'm fine thanks, bye." I say stubbornly through the last of the tears.

"No, Emily. You don't sound okay, can I come in? Please Em?" He whispers through the door.

"No. Leave me alone, Dan."

"Okay, but hurry up, okay? I've got dinner in the oven for you" He quickly says before leaving me. Dinner. I can already smell it.

No Emily, you mustn't cave in to it, your already fat enough, remember?

But it smells so good.

But oh so many calories. Don't cave in. You can't. Your already a failure. I weigh myself before wiping away tears with my sleeve. 92lbs. Another term for that could be overweight. I need to lose at least another 20lbs. Maybe then someone would love me. Quickly, I walk out the bathroom and into the kitchen.

"Dan I'm going out." I say, grabbing my keys and heading for the door.

"Where? Your foods almost ready though!" Dan says, looking confused.

"Just on a run or something. And I already ate about an hour ago" I lie.

"Really? Oh right," he says, acting completely oblivious. "And Em, why are you going on another run? You don't need to lose weight!"

"Dan I can do what I want. You don't own me." I say, more sternly than I wanted it to be.

"Please stay in Em. Just for tonight." He almost whispers. I can't stand him any longer and finally give in to him. Just the way he looked at me with his deep chocolate brown eyes and looked so perfect. I wish he loved me like I loved him. But he didn't, and I had to painfully get on with the fact that no one loved me. No one.

Sorry this chapter is kinda crappy but it's my first fan fiction and believe me, it's gonna get better! And sorry its kinda short to... oh wellll. If I get 3 rates I'll update again?💖