Lost Love In Tokyo Part 1

chapter 1: Getting away

Does my life have a purpose? at least that's what I wonder. I'm a 17 year old girl who has no one who cares about her..except xander. He treats me like a real person, an adult even, but I can't explain how I feel about my life or my feelings. But let's start like this....
~6 years ago~
"I'd rather see you cry than to see you happy.." Vivian said while smoking her cigarette
"Well I'm glad that's how you feel CRUELLA" I said laughing at my remark. Vivian is my dumb foster mom. I had a foster dad but he died in a shooting. But to be honest, I didn't cry at his funeral. "Why don't you let me be me?!" I asked frustratingly," is it because I'm not some ugly,cold hearted person like you?!!" I responded. She looked at me with a glare that would burn your soul to ashes.... "I never wanted you, and I will never care about you" she said with a menacing smile..
This was 6 years ago..
I used to smile but after my mom died, I have found it difficult to even think of happiness.
I have always had a fiery spirit..its in my blood. But I knew what I had to do--- I had to move out. You might wonder, why would a 15 year old girl just leave? I have bunch of reasons and its called Vivian. She adopted me for 600$ a month -which she thinks I don't know about- she thinks I'll never find someone who would "put up with me" as she puts it.
But I'm gonna show her that I'm a better person she'll ever be! But I have to text xander..
He is letting me stay with him for awhile. And I know it seems like something will happen with just me and him but WE ARE JUST FRIENDS! We grew up together and he's been really close to me for as long as I can remember. As soon as I pick up my phone to text him he calls me. How ironic. "Hello?" I say acting surprised, "hey Annie! Are you ready yet? My car has been waiting for the past 10 minutes!" He says being impatient. "Can you please tone down the being a baby attitude?" I reply with laughter. "Whatever just hurry up okay?" "Okay..bye" I replied. I pack all of my clothes in a big duffel bag and write a letter saying goodbye. I don't have any regrets right now because this is the beginning of something amazing ... Hopefully...