So I go cry till I sleep
just after thinking too deep;
thoughts too heavy
for only my mind to keep.
Oh, go on, don't worry about me
while I go worry about me:
ponder my appearance, doubt my intelligence.
Oh, go on, laugh about me while I weep till I drift
I don't care about stabs in my back, and it scares me that I'm used to it.
Yes, it hurts, these puppet strings attached to my lips, and cheeks;
my whole body, if you want in general miss!
Your shoulder shakes up and down when you giggled, mine does when I'm trembled.
***
And yeah, that's pretty much my tired, sad brain can vomit.
I'm not sure if I'll finish it someday but..meh. Idk what else to say.
...
YES! I know that I have to go write a chapter for that Draco Malfoy fic but to be very honest, I don't want to.. anymore.
I am very very sorry. I should've told you and PROMISED you that I will continue the book! It was meant to be a one-shot but WHOOPS stupid me went and published it as a BOOK.
UGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO ANNOYED TO MYSELF!!
If you're going to start blaming yourself for this and start commenting that you are sorry (which I'm not really sure why, and why did I thought of that..), please don't. It is none of your fault; it is all mine.
You liked the fanfic and so gave it a vote. I saw the numbers of how many reads and was very shocked about it! Wasn't expecting it at all!
And so I wanted to make something in return! And the only choice was for me to continue the book.
Too ecstatic of what just happened, I gave an announcement on it and told that I was continuing it since there were comments asking for me to continue it and also telling that they really enjoyed the story and loved it..
Those were motivations! And it should help me be able continue writing the story! But as I was already starting the next chapter (yes, it has been started), I realized that I don't really know what to write. Another thing that makes it harder to write is that I don't have the same old firey interest about Draco as I used to.. PUT DOWN YOUR TORCHES AND PITCHED FORKS! I still do think that Draco Malfoy is gorgeous but I just.. I just.. GAHHHHHH!!!
Why did I have to make that promise when I can't even do it! And what's even worse is that I'm going through loads of poo at the moment, self-explanatory if you read the so-called poem in the first page..
I hope you guys understand.. I've had big plans! Stories that I was very excited to write! But every time I click on the book which I hoped to be published soon.. I actually have a chore to make which was the Draco book. I have considered it nowadays as a chore cause I am just being forced to write it. In short, I, myself, is forcing myself to do something I'm not interested to do. Which is like a chore. But there are those times that I do enjoy washing the dishes, nevermind that.
And again, I hope you guys do understand the position that I am in right now..
OH OKAY! How about instead of stopping the book and breaking the promise.. I will either just turn it into a short story OR look for a co-writer or anyone who is interested to continue the book!
How about just stick to the second idea, yeah?
OKAY, so whoever is interested to be, let's make it official, the WRITER of the Draco Malfoy: Saturday Study Date (gonna have to change the title soon) PM me! Don't worry, I'll help if you needed me to, I'm just going to make myself as the editor of the book.. Which is changing mispelled words or maybe adding more adjectives and those other helpful crap..
Anyways, I have to go and update the readers of that book to go and read this... Thanks for taking your time loves!
~Rows🚽
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just another one of those books
Randomread at your own risk, just like what the title says cause this book is going to be written by me, Rose, being poetic on midnights writing about feeling worthless by sunrise. may contain really sad poems, weird ideas, maybe some experiences or advic...
