Secret love song by: Little mix
Probably listen to while reading
I'm so sorry I might have done part II in with part I because I listen to part II more often...
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Joeys pov
"You won't forget me right daniel?"
"Never."
And we parted ways. I haven't seen him since November. Seven years ago.
Driving around town in my old car, listening to old music we both used to love.
When you hold me in the street, and you kiss me on the dance floor
I have to pull over
I wish that we could be like that, why can't we be like that? Cause I'm yours
Flashback -
"Daniel I love you so much... I wanna grow old together." I spoke, caressing my boyfriends soft cheek.
"Me too Joe. I don't care what our parents say... I love you."
"Yes were 14 but we know what we want.. right?" I said looking up slowly, meeting his beautiful eyes.
"Yes i-"
"JOSEPH! GET AWAY FROM THAT FAGGOT!" My mother screamed as she ran towards us.
"I'm so sorry... I love you danny."
"I love you more." Daniel said before disappearing into his house.
"Mom I-"
"YOU ARE NOT GAY! MY SON IS NOT A QUEER! GET IN THE HOUSE. WE WILL TALK."
I ran.
Tears streamed down my face as I ran to my bathroom, falling down the wall.
Why couldn't she be more accepting?
I'm young, but I love him.
Why can't they see that?
We keep behind closed doors, everytime I see you I die a little more
"Joseph, this is Mrs. Preda. We are here to talk about the situation."
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls, it'll never be enough
"So, your fag son is dating mine?" My mother stated as if she had just seen the devil.
As you drive me to my house, I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down, you and I both have to hide on the outside, where I can't be yours and you
Can't be mine
"This is horrifying! I can't believe daniel would be a queer.. such a... lowlife!" Mrs. Preda gasped loudly. "We need to get this fixed. You and my son NO MORE! He will have kids the humane way, and find a nice wife. It's a phase.
But I know this, we got a love that is hopeless
"Mom I'm sorry ..."
"I don't think God accepts sorry from humans as low as you. You will do exactly what Mrs. Preda said she'd do with Daniel. That is that!"
Why can't you hold me in the street, why can't I kiss you on the dance floor
"They're over! No one will be a fag in either of our homes. Now, tell Mrs. Preda thank you."
I wish that we could be like that, why can't we be like that cause I'm yours
I ran
I shouldn't have, but I ran to Daniels house.
After knocking I got an answer from some girl...
"Daniel, who is this boy here?" She said scowling, looking me up and down.
"Oh maybe just a- Joseph? What are you doing here?"
Why can't I say that I'm in love, I wanna shout it from the roof tops
"I need to see you."
"Sorry um.. bro but my mom doesn't want me hanging out with faggots anymore. Cmon Elizabeth. Just close it."
"Okay, Danny." She said proudly, shutting the door in my face.
This hurt bad.
I wish that we could be like that, why can't we be like that cause I'm yours
End of flashback -
I need to compose myself. I'm 21, I don't need him.
I dont.
Yes, I've tried relationships but it always ended because I would abruptly say 'daniel' in any situation or be depressed all the time
He was my everything.
Now, I'm driving back to my old town coffee shop where we used to go after school. Every day..
"Hi, welcome to Barney's Iced coffee, how can I help you?" A blonde haired girl spoke cheerfully.
"Uh, just one hazelnut Iced coffee for here, thanks."
I go to sit down.
They never changed the scenery, the chairs
The lady gives me my coffee
Hey, that's the table that we would hold hands in because it was isolated
That's the bathroom In which I spilled my hot chocolate all over daniel and we laughed while cleaning it up.
That's the counter we used to order one blueberry and two chocolate muffins at because I was always extra hungry for chocolate after school.
This is the booth I first locked eyes with him in. He stride over, and spoke cheesily
'Hey don't you go to my school?'
I still remember his sweet voice.
His glowing eyes.
"Hey, are you okay?"
My mouth dries
My heart stops
My head hurts
"Im... okay... thanks."
His eyes are bright. His brown luscious hair I used to run my hands through and tell him how beautiful he was.
How many others have done it now?
"I'm daniel. You are?"
He doesn't even remember me
Of course not...
"Uh... I'm...
Joseph. Nice to meet you."
"Joey? Huh I like that name. Once had a boy I knew named that. The love of my life, the reason I breathed technically."
"Oh really? What was he like?"
"Had the most gorgeous eyes ever, you could see the stars in them. His hair was always perfect because of how self concious he would be. It was light brown and he had the prettiest face. Soft hands, and we loved each other very much
Until I messed up and left him."
I can't cry here. He doesn't even remember me.
As I start packing my bag, he grabs my hand and says,
"I've missed you for so long."
