A SIN

Training with him

I ran into the forest. I just want to go to the clearing and lay there forever. I was disgust of myself. Blood was covering my face and body. I hate it, I hate this shity life and all of the things I have done just to survive this. I'm despicable.

When I made it there, I hurried to the stream rubbing my face and hands of the blood. Even when it was gone I still can feel it, the filthy blood on my hands, that horrible taste in my mouth. I started scratching my skin hysterically trying to get the invisible blood off me.

Standing on the grass feeling pathetic. I dropped on my knees and cried helplessly. I don't deserve to live. I killed people in numbers I can't even count. Why in hell I'm still alive?! Why do I still have the right to live after all these horrible things I have done why?!!

"Elena" "Elena" he repeated my name. His voice was like the early autumn winds rushing through the dried brown tree leaves to my ears. He always had that shivery impact on me. His arms were around me in seconds rocking me back and forth whispering calming words, helping me to relax.

I don't know how long we stayed like this but I needed it so he kept humming a light tune in my ears. He felt cold like always but my worm body is enough for me. I just want him around. Being with him helps me to forget every bad thing in this world.

For the past year he was the drug I always craved. Having him is a bless, He is the one who keeps my sanity alive while being with the rouges is killing me mentally.

Sometimes I can't describe my feelings towards him. He's special very special. He helped me in many ways especially in training. I really owe him a lot but he never asks me for anything not even for blood. Being a vampire like what he is, he never asked or took any blood from me. The first time I sniffed a swift of his scent in the clearing I thought he is going to kill me. I believed that I will be drained of my blood in any minute but he didn't. He just stood there looking at me as if he just found the most precious thing in the world. His eyes were sparkling like rubies invaded by a glittery possessiveness feeling.

He is just Rome, my vampire best friend Roman. He actually smells like rain in the forest. His scent never stopped relaxing me every time we were together and I'm thankful for that. "Elena what's wrong?! Did anything happen?! There is something off about your scent, did you go on another attack?!" I looked at him trying to smooth the frown in his face with shaking hands, frowning just don't suit him. "He's back" that was enough to make him understand.

He grabbed me from the shoulders and asked furiously "Did he touch you?! Did any of those low life rouges hurt you?! Did they?!" . I could see his eyes changing to a red shade. I touched his hands to calm him down "No" my voice wasn't as stable as I wished to but He have to know "Rome I I" I tried to explain. "what is it Elli?!" He asked gently "I killed him" I looked at him in the eyes "I killed Zach" I dropped my head in shame broking into tears waiting for his reaction.

"What? Zach the gamma?! " I nodded my head slowly "yeah, he challenged me and I lost control and he died" I spilled the last words shakily."It's okay, he deserve it, he was bad", "they are all bad Rome!" I replied seriously, "shhh its okay just relax", I hummed a response and let out a sigh while he kept rocking me.

He suddenly asked from no where "Elena we are not training are we?!", l looked him in the eyes " Of course we are Rome, training is important!", he rolled his eyes at me and shoved me out of his arms "you're always like this bumbling about training your not stable right now and you want to train?! You need to rest Elli". I gave him a tired smile "It just helps me forget Rome" he replied with a low voice "fine let's do it".

We were done at midnight, I said goodbye after hearing a long speech about how to get him when I'm in danger. He's so dramatic I clearly can protect myself and he knows it.