Lost Love In Tokyo Part 1

chapter 4: was it all a dream ?

I feel so weird.
I wonder if I'm still "pregnant". Well that was a stupid question to ask! I have to check if xander is still sleeping. I see him in his weird pajamas while he's in bed. Am i literally seeing things? I go to the bathroom and lock the door. I take the pregnancy test and,surprisingly it says I'm not pregnant! But am I going crazy? I remember taking the test and it said positive.

I go and look back at the test I took and it said negative too. Anyway, I really need to calm down. Xander is up now. I really think I need to talk to xander about what happen at the bridge today. " xander, can we talk about what happened at the bridge. I said. "Sure", xander said. " I think we should understand us first. I mean, I'm not really ready for this and-" he stopped me. "What are you saying ?" I suddenly start crying,"We never even established how we felt toward each other!" "Maybe because I wanted you to be true to me.!" I yell.
We sit there In silence. "Well if that's how you feel...then I guess prom is out of the question." He says before he walks out .

I feel responsible for saying that to him. I truly felt like he never wanted to be with me. Until now.

What have I done?